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Where is now every tale
That you will never more tell
You are so sick and pale
Angel from depths of hell

where are now your wings
Now all your feelings are dead
I believed in things
That you never had

Although I am still under spell
And don't wish to break free
Angel from depth of hell
Where will you be?

You were hiding behind the wall
Blooming meadows and screaming sky
And I thought you didn't hear my call
But I was waiting for reply

I was lonely before your fall
And my dreams simply passing by

You were hugging without hugs
I was lonely before you fell
Why still hiding behind your shell?
You're the one of the ancient gods
You are angel from depth of hell

Still not clear is it true of false
Am I able to know my fate
You were meeting me in the halls
Made of ivory heavy gate

You were telling that your heart was occupied
I was nearly sure I had a rival
I couldn't say that you lied 
But I believed in power of denial

You even gave her a name
You should marry her joked your mates
My passion was my pride and my shame
Double sided heaven and hell's gates

It was impossible to distinguish
And I kept silent as a fish
If you were lying why did I cry
If you said truth why didn't I kill my wish?

You were two sides of a coin
The coin that was for me the blade
How many teams I used to join
How many times I used to fade

In your eyes you keep the slivers of broken sky

Fallen angel's love is heavy but irresistible
like a marble cliff gleaming in the moonlight
fragile but strong
shapeless but powerful
cosy but very tight

If God loves all his children
Lucifer loves only ones whom he decided to choose
his cosy nest tights around you both a noose
inverted cross you have to hold
made of blinding fallen light's gold
to the head blood rushes
as you hang head over heels
then you get it is more than just one of your crushes
that you're feeling what nobody feels
is there something more painful than a useless sacrifice?
yes, there is something worse - seemingly true lies

Only thing that helps you rise over the humankind
is the falling angel's love

only hand to lead you through horrors and mysteries
saving charm but show the truth
secret knowledge path
and this hand is hand of the beast
don't be afraid
let the claws get into your skin

you can refuse but he'll pay back  with curse
and his blood would stain you more than any Lord's

If the truth is one, but the ways to it are many
Why do you deny that evil may be the shortest way?

what do you call the immortal soul
maybe it is the rusty chains of bondage

trembling flower of the creed
will be crucified
in the cry of heart
in the heart of cry
sky twists in last agony in my hands
in the silence of darkness
in the dark of silence
cut off a head of a stinking lily
save her life with a murder of hope

shining river of blood will lighten my way
purifying flood on insanity bay

just remember
I'd die for you thousand times
let the border between life and death
cut me like a thinnest blade
let you cast on me a spell
not any prayers
not waiting for admiration or pitiness

return me my power to dream by my wish
with only touch of your velvet skin
with only cut of a sharpened fang
adding spice to this dish
and our colors blend
until the end
in the shroud that I spin
in endless hymn I never sang

my frozen corpse in the frozen waves
the most constant of the graves
deceptive shapes of distant stars
experience preserves me from the faith
I know you watch me from one of them

keep watching me
it gives me force
approaching me
through closed doors

Let me feel your defence
Through unlimited distance
Let me feel your presence
Even if it will be wrath
The fire of your sight
And the ice of your indifference
Shatter my letargy
Broken elevator of a crystal coffin

The falling roof of the cave blocks our path, but when it is flooded with a stream of blood, we climb out of it like a bridge.
I watch my cozy grave go, but the handshake envelops me tighter than icy waves
and my companion says: "the one who forbade me to be loved is wreaking his revenge, which you must share, but this revenge is now only evidence of his impotence."

I have no idea who must say
"I am here to incarnate
all your fairy tales
Are you still afraid?"

tales I had to hold
back, tales that you told
only when we both will be too old

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From my imaginative fans
I was hiding behind cemetery fence

If I have a choice why should I be cursed?

I've seen my way clear too late
And now I should enter the closing gate
what prevents me from it - borders of my flesh
or my fear of them?
Why am I afraid?
I'm here to win this fight
I said.
Actually
I didn't know what to fight with
maybe that feeling during the flight
when don't want to return to the ground beneath.

I believe in You totally but no one believes in me
I cannot go on without approval
is this need my plus or minus