into outer space

My heart is thrown
into outer space
the poison drown
deep inside my veins

the darkness calls
into her embrace

tears have no color
when I bleed
and their light
have no speed

can't choose the one
got lost between the ways
the longer time is gone
the deeper horror stays

in all the places where I hide
the acid in formaldehyde

behind the windows of my ship
the darkness drinks me sip by sip

when half of me became a corpse
I thought it might be even worse

on other side of the black hole
there is the reality it stole

I know my wishes are in vain

because sometimes there is just too much pain

the wishes burn in cubes of ice
it is too late to throw the dice

stardust and ashes to stardust
a lost ability to trust

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behind the windows of my ship
the visions rape me but they slip
away with their steady grip

only together with the organ is the tumor
no point reset dial no guarantee
but what if no way forth without the tutor
touch the illusory triumph of spirit free

My last engine is on fire
dripping with engine oil
would you walk on the wire
across the abyss fraught to boil

my heart is thrown into outer space
my heart is heavy but it is stiff and cramp
my heart is comet freezing in the heat
art locked in stone
can you hear the beat?

stars burning eyes are demonseed
and their light has no speed
the race will never be complete