Flower and a sword

I will rip out my very heart,
Turn it into a red rose.
I'll leave without it; it is hard
But this is how it goes.
And I will walk like I am drunk,
But I won't fall, though blood will run.
And you will say that I am bad.
I am simply happy - you are glad.
My love, my life, I went to war.
It's all my fault, but please forgive me.
Jesus Christ,
              My Lord,
                peace
                Please give me.
And He will heal me, that's for sure.
To love, to serve, and to defend!
Someday, my love, the war will end.

I love you, dear, so very much.
I'll miss your smile, I'll miss your touch,
From our talks, your every word.
But now my country needs my sword.

For you, I'll learn to use my brain,
To know the sky is not to blame.
When it's my fault, babe, don't worry -
I'll find the way to say I'm sorry.
When I see people, I mean brothers
I kill myself to not kill others.
The urge - to burn the crazy world.
Forgive me, heal me, help me, Lord.
Let other girls keep the moon and stars.
You were created for my arms.
We've looked down at our feet too long,
Forgot the sky was ever there.
So now the harmony is gone —
The world eats itself in despair.

I love you, dear, so very much.
I'll miss your smile, I'll miss your touch,
From our talks, your every word.
But now my country needs my sword.

I will rip out my very heart,
Turn it into a red rose.
I'll leave without it; it is hard
But this is how it goes.
Have you found it, girl?
It's yours.
Forever.
We'll meet again, I promise.
My friend. My goddess.