No Words

I've got no words for this condition.
I've got no metaphors or pictures...
My whole life's one big contradiction
That's looping on itself

I have all family and friends and love...
But i have never felt so so alone...
I feel alone, this caring glove...
Holds me so tight, stripping my powers to the bone...
And all that I could ever want is to just be left all alone.

I don't want those "I love you" texts...
Same thing about "Miss you" and "Good night".
All that I want is just some rest...
From all your people's "fight or flight".

Your words won't save me, knock it off...
You tried. It didn't work. Give up on me!
A bit too late for words, so please get off...
As Beatles said "Let it be, Let it be, Let it be"

I helped you people and you love me. That's all great...
But I don't want you though, just heave my body overboard.
Forget. Move on. And don't look back, just, please, dont wait...
Let sharks come over for the dinner, and take me so I dont get bored.

I don't want all of people's problems.
I am so done with your mistakes.
You have your head? Go fight your goblins!
I'm not the one right now to gift you sweet and tasty little cakes.

You need me? Welp. That's not my problem.
You got attached. You choose to be...
So weak, so open, NOT MY PROBLEM!
I didn't make you fall in love with me.

Giving false hopes and saying "yes"?
Yeah, maybe that's on me.
But that's the thing narcissism, my guests.
I would not give a damn, I'd let it be.

Oh, hey, oh wow, you miss me, you're worried and you care?
That's nice of you... Appreciate it, really... Feel great now, better now, for real!
Oh, yeah the only thing's that i don't care and all i want's a fucking flare
To burn my life down to the ground. Ain't that a bargain? Ain't a deal?