I wish nobody cared

I wish nobody really cared,
So in the night, I'd have a right to do it,
Sadly, some friends, that i have made,
Don't wish, to leave me to it.

It's difficult to live this life
I'm tired, powerless and scared.
And every day's just like a knifeunprepared,
Twisting inside me, unprepared

I was for weight of this whole world,
It's heavier, than was expected,
And every night it gets so cold...
I wish I could for once just be protected,

From all this pain and lies and dirt,
That I'm surrounded by now,
And no-one ever could alert,
Me of this pain, and tell me how

To make it in this life,
Don't let them just consume you,
Don't let the sharp and heavy knife,
Turn deep and deep inside you.

And what's the point of all of this?
Just live, enjoy your happy life?
While people kill, don't value anything?
Forget that death is running rife?
What? Use the "ignorance is bliss"?!
And close my eyes on everything?

I'm sorry, weak I am and tired.
I'm so much very very tired.
I wish that you could let me go,
So I could end the life of hope.

I tried to make this world a better place,
I failed, i miserably failed.
Now I can't stand my own sad face,
That to my mirror was just nailed

With nails of sins and my new self,
Who's rude and loud and not polite,
With careless look up on my face,
A good man? Wouldn't say so, not just quite...