I Came Here to Disappear

[Verse 1]
I left the key beneath the blue flowerpot
Took only the coat that still smelled like rain
The landlord asked if I was coming back
I said, "Not in any name you know me by"

[Pre-Chorus]
At the bus depot, a woman counted change
A boy slept folded against his father's sleeve
I watched my old town shrink behind the glass
And felt the weight come loose from me

[Chorus]
I came here to disappear
Not die, not vanish, just become unclear
No one asking where I've been
No old photograph to pull me in
If you call, let it ring
I need to hear what silence brings
I came here to disappear
And leave enough of me to start somewhere

[Verse 2]
I rent a room above a bakery
The curtains stop an inch above the floor
Every morning flour clouds the alleyway
And nobody has seen my face before

[Pre-Chorus]
I write my name, then cross it out
On grocery lists and envelopes
Somewhere between the bread and dawn
I find a smaller way to hope

[Chorus]
I came here to disappear
Not die, not vanish, just become unclear
No one asking where I've been
No old photograph to pull me in
If you call, let it ring
I need to hear what silence brings
I came here to disappear
And leave enough of me to start somewhere

[Bridge]
Maybe one day I'll tell the truth
To someone who won't turn it into proof
Maybe I'll keep the name I had
When it no longer feels like something bad

[Final Chorus]
I came here to disappear
Now I can breathe when nobody is near
There is a window facing east
A chipped white cup, a place to sleep
If you call, let it ring
I am learning what the quiet means
I came here to disappear
And found a life that doesn't need me scared

[Outro]
The key is gone beneath the flowerpot
The door is closed, but I am still here