Everyday Каждый день

                to Sam B****

Everyday when I wake up - I feel pain,
I allready don"t feel my legs,
I just want to sense the hole life again,
I wish it would be that time,
When I was happy feld fine health.
I want to be happy, to leave with all beauty,
That I had have in my past.

I had have a lot of wunderfull days,
But now that gone.
I don"t belong here,
Why I must to know all this?
To go this way?
But I beleave that, the new day shall become,
I"ll be with freedom and love again,
All bad should be in the past - will not come,
I"ll have the rest.

Now I hate my face, my body,
Because they are working bad,
To feel this all - is not the easy way,
I want to leave the real life with my friends,
With my lovely cats like it was last yaers.
Someone don"t want to see my happieness?
Or it is my imagination at nigth?

It could be soo wunderfull life,
Even the sky smile sometimes,
Now I can"t feel the power in eyes,
Maybe, I will not be myself,
As I tryed to be,
I want to be myself -
Now - I"m  just
The person who I am.