Burning

I am done, I'm mad so much,
I can explode even from touch.
I know how cold is floor in 2 AM,
But I don't really know who I am.
I want to be friends with myself, but I can't ,
That is the pain that they don't understand.
Those people who hurt me and laugh at my face,
Talk behind my back, thinking they can disgrace
Me. And they can. It doesn't scare me as it used to do,
It is not something really new...

There are the kids, who cheer me up,
But it will never be enough,
Cause I still burn
And I still learn
That I should never trust,
And everything doesn't last
For long.
When it comes to people I am always wrong,
No matter how I try I don't belong,
I can't fight this even though I'm strong.

And I can burn myself inside out,
But I'll feel empty more without
The pain.
It hurts like someone else's chain,
But it's all mine,
And nothing in the world can ever make it fine.

They share their pain on the shoulders of loved ones,
While I've never had this chance.
I'm burning down so slowly.
I am not weak, but it's what they are showing me,
While pretending to be polite,
Hoping that I'll think that it's just fine.

Burning inside, cause now I just can't let it out,
My lonely death feels right behind
My back. It hurts,
Is it what I really deserve?

07.07.2026