Pocket of Pins

Your blue note on my fridge
Still held by that cheap magnet
Next to the takeout menu
And the rent I paid too late.

I wore your hoodie to bed
Even after it stopped smelling like you.
Now it just hangs on the chair
Like it’s waiting to move.

I keep the door unlocked
Like maybe you forgot.
I hear your keys in my head —
Then it’s gone.

I’m still here, still here
In the pocket of pins.
I’m still here, still here
Where the hurt never ends.
If you call, I’ll fold.
If you leave, I’ll break.
I’m still here, still here.
Say my name.

Your mug by the sink
Has a crack like a bad punchline.
I keep pouring cold tea
Like I’m fixing the spine.

The hallway smells like rain
From a jacket on the hook by the door.
I step around your ghost
Like I’ve done it before.

I keep the porch light on
Like maybe you'll come home.
I hear your shoes on the floor —
Then I’m alone.

I’m still here, still here
In the pocket of pins.
I’m still here, still here
Where the hurt never ends.
If you call, I’ll fold.
If you leave, I’ll break.
I’m still here, still here.
Say my name.

I bit my tongue for months
Just to keep this room from shaking.
You turned your face to glass
And watched me keep on breaking.

So take the frame from the wall.
Take the keys from my hand.
I don’t need every piece
To know I was real.

I’m still here, still here
In the pocket of pins.
I’m still here, still here
Where the hurt never ends.
If you call, I’ll fold.
If you leave, I’ll break.
I’m still here, still here.
Say my name.

I’m still here, still here
In the pocket of pins.
I’m still here, still here
And I still let you in.
If you call, I’ll fold.
If you leave, I’ll break.
I’m still here, still here.
Say my name.

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