Vesper

[intro]
[verse]
In the mirror she is pinching skin til it turns red
Trading breakfast for the monsters hiding in my head
Got a mouth full of water, keep the secrets in
I am swallowing the static just to fit my skin
Speaking loud isn't allowed - never make a scene
Be a shadow - keep it down on the baseline scream
Pretty quickly turns to prison on a pedestal.
Hold your breath, stop the heart - be invisible.

[chorus]
It’s a heavy kind of air when you’re growing up!
Bleeding out your heart silly just to fill their cup!
They want perfect little angel with a smile on cue
But the armor’s too squeezy and it’s breaking you
We’re dancing on the edge of a panic attack
Are we never gonna ever get our voices back?
Feel the weight of crazy world on a fragile frame
Learn the rules to play along in this losing game

[verse]
Stitch your lips with "yes" and maybe nobody gets mad
Be the best cute little trophy that they ever had
A’s on paper - perfect shaper, hollow in the chest
If I’m not the golden winner, I’m a broken mess
Chasing after shiny halos that I’ll never wear
Crying out in the bathroom, fixing up my hair
'Cause the fear of the judgment is a loaded gun
And I’m running out of places where to hide or run

[chorus]
It’s a heavy kind of air when you’re growing up!
Bleeding out your heart silly just to fill their cup!
They want perfect little angel with a smile on cue
But the armor’s too squeezy and it’s breaking you
We’re dancing on the edge of a panic attack
Are we never gonna ever get our voices back?
Feel the weight of crazy world on a fragile frame
Learn the rules to play along in this losing game

[verse]
Last night we swore it was us together - up against the town
Now you’re whispering my secrets - just to shoot me down
Friendship like a fucking matchstick, burning up the room
Leaving me to sweep the ashes of my hope too soon
Clutching keys in my stiff knuckles walking home alone
Eyes - on shadows, chest is heavy, one wrong step - I'm gone
Gotta check behind my shoulder - map out the streets
Trying to survive not monsters - people that she meets

[chorus]
It’s a heavy kind of air when you’re growing up!
Bleeding out your heart silly just to fill their cup!
They want perfect little angel with a smile on cue
But the armor’s too squeezy and it’s breaking you
We’re dancing on the edge of a panic attack
Are we never gonna ever get our voices back?
Feel the weight of crazy world on a fragile frame
Learn the rules to play along in this losing game

[outro]
Fragile frame...
Losing game...
I am screaming out loud -
No more "yes" or shame.
If there's no hope for me -
Just recall my name.
Just recall my name.
Just recall my name.


July 2, 2026