Missing Peace

[intro]

[verse]
A's on the ledger, a smile for the family call,
Loyal and ready to catch everyone who might fall.
Ticking off boxes, I'm running by every damn rule,
Playing the part of a competent calm like a fool.
[verse]
When the lights dim all the masks fall away anyway,
Looking for answers, but they disappear, run astray.
Doing my best - rest and freedom are shadows in gray.
I must excel in their eyes but this isn't my game.

[chorus]
I'm trying to be whole, but a piece is always gone,
In perfect-picture world - just where do I belong?
They say I make it easy - I fall apart and bend,
Chasing a flawless story that never will transcend.
I watch myself achieving to see bright lights descend
The hollow only deepens, it just won't ever end.

[verse]
And every feed is showing the glamorous holy shine,
A goddess' shape, a contour, a pose so divine.
Another brand new lipstick, a dress I tried in vain,
Chasing the golden idol through sun and through the rain.
[verse]
It's not enough, not pretty, not the right kind of a chic,
I'm scared of the mirrors - the silent stiff critique.
I reinvent the seasons, with trends, both new and bold,
To cry when evening curtains fall down and unfold...

[chorus]
I'm trying to be whole, but a piece is always gone,
In perfect-picture world - just where do I belong?
They say I make it easy - I fall apart and bend,
Chasing a flawless story that never will transcend.
I watch myself achieving to see bright lights descend
The hollow only deepens, it just won't ever end.

[verse]
This feminine feels heavy, uncomfortably slow,
Not sparkling and not vibrant, not naturally glow.
The glamorous whispers, they echo and they tease,
I stumble through all phases, just trying to appease.
[verse]
They float in silk and satin, with innocence and grace,
I feel the pressure cracking, it's etched onto my face.
A quiet hope's unraveling behind the closed-door sighs
I must perform, I must pretend and hide it from all eyes.

[chorus]
I'm trying to be whole, but a piece is always gone,
In perfect-picture world - just where do I belong?
They say I make it easy - I fall apart and bend,
Chasing a flawless story that never will transcend.
I watch myself achieving to see bright lights descend
The hollow only deepens, it just won't ever end.

[bridge]
No, it just won't ever end
This hollow deepens in my chest,
No, it just won't ever end
A missing piece in this parade
I'm trying to be whole,
But ending in pretend.
The mouse never stops -
This wheel will never bend.

[outro]

[chorus]
I'm trying to be whole, but a piece is always gone,
In perfect-picture world - just where do I belong?
They say I make it easy - I fall apart and bend,
Chasing a flawless story that never will transcend.
I watch myself achieving to see bright lights descend
The hollow only deepens, it just won't ever end.


July 3, 2026