Gaslighting

You know, I made it all up, I was blind!
You know that you didn't love me at all...
And all of the memories I kept in my mind,
Are "fragile" and "fake", just destined to fall.

You didn't long for my kiss in the dark,
Pressing your body so close to my own...
I didn't touch you with jealousy's spark,
It wasn't love — just a void to the bone.

We didn't watch "Your Name" side by side,
In the shadows of night's silent sleep...
And your smiles were just empty and dry,
And they never were truly that deep.

We didn't hide underneath the warm sheets,
Safe from the dark of the world and its lies...
We didn't share those invisible strings,
No, we never even just closed our eyes.

We didn't laugh, we were never that free,
We didn't swim where the ocean was strong...
We didn't sing out of tune, out of key,
Freaking out strangers with our silly song.

We didn't walk holding hands in the sand,
Where the ocean was meeting the blue...
This pile of memories... none of it stands.
I made it up! Yeah, right... I was never with you.