Her Majesty Pain

I really need a detox
I want to forget everyone I knew -
All the bodies, all the speeches,
all the echoes they left inside me

I beg the voices in my head-
Shut up!
Disappear!
Leave me one moment of silence
I refuse the pretenses,
the masks,
the polished lies
I refuse all of it

I am almost dying from my pain
Suffering lives in every cell of me
Even breathing cuts like glass
Leave me alone, people
Leave me to my ruin

In the near future,
my lover will be Her Majesty - Pain
I feel her clearly now
Closer than anyone
More faithful than anyone
She wants what I want
A love that goes to the very end

Only she touches me tirelessly
Only she stays
Only she is as determined as I am
We will love each other slowly,
mercilessly,
for a long long time
She will go all the way until she takes
everything that belongs to her
Only she is as decisive as I am
Only she will love me forever

And somehow it feels honest
So honest that I want to whisper
Don't give up on me!
Take me!