You

Through all my life I sing a song,

Where all the words are just your name.

The more I say myself - its wrong-

The more it hurts. No one to blame,

 

No one to share, no one to speak,

Cause if to speak, then it'd be you.

But how can I, if I'm a freak,

Compered to anyone?- That's true.

 

It's truth unheard, it's truth unseen,

Unspoken, deep down in my heart,

The only one who knows what's in,

It, never you, but me and God.

 

And how to tell, and how to show,

What layed inside my mind for years?

The only choice, it seems, to raw

My insides, wishes, hidden layers.

 

The hidden thoughts, that are behind

My mask of calmleness, beholde.

But when it's out of blurry mind,

Will that be meet with warmths or cold?

 

Will I be treated as insane

Or will be treated as a god?

Or maybe worse - with gazeless stare,

Which is the end of hopeless start,

 

Of hopeless dreams, that waisted, spent.

And here we are, of course, again

In the beginning of the end,

Just where I started, where began.

 

And where I stand - is where I fall,

Without witnesses or hope,

Not  even clearly seeing goal,

Without any right reward.

 

If only you could see yourself,

The way I always look at you,

The way I see you, pray for welth

For you forever... would you too?

 

Oh, would you tell, that always felt

The same way just about me?..

And only then my mask would melt,

And only then I'd start to be,

 

I'd start to live, like never did,

I'd changed completly all my ways,

That were so wrong, and I would beat,

My fears, my loneliness, mistakes,

 

My sense of people, sense of loss,

Continued living, if it's been,

The end of world - that's lie, because,

My only world is you, amen.

 

The fear is key to something knew,

To something I have always runned,

But thing with fear, it scares. How you,

Could ever hear me, if I'm dumb?

 

If I am blind to every thing,

I lay my eyes, exeption - you?

How long can I play on one string?

How long it'll take for me to do

 

The nobel reason, that behind,

Intensions, every move and glance,

That I'm making? Will I find

Relations usefull by the chance?

 

And will I reach the breaking point

Of me, of everything that was:

Of feelings, thoughts, of every joints

That ache in body? I'm lost cause,

 

I'm lost in forest of the mind.

I'v been unfound, I'v been forgot,

And no one cared. There's no one kind,

Who would be there - right place and spot,

 

Right thoughts, intensions, feelings, love...

But how the rightness could exist

In chaos, jail, that we call heart,

And in the mind, which kind of mist?


And how can our love exist,

If every thing against us now?..

I guess it can't. I guess...I can't

Continue this. Accept my bow


In final credits of the song,

Where all the words were just your name.

This chapter of my life is closed.

There's nothing left for us to say.