Happier

Five scarlet roses
cold winding streets
was choosing me every weekend
and every busy day

will i stop wearing pitch black veil
i can't leave my bed
can't see your happy face
and your shaking hands
it should have been me

i was an idiot
now I'm grieving it
what am i supposed to do

was everything about us two just fucking stand up show
this fire is freezing me
I've got it in my veins
wish i was stupid then
i can forgive you for everything you've done
even if you chose yourself
i don't remember if you smoked with me that troubled nights
i don't remember if you made the last kiss real
mom please don't touch me now
I'm mourning my last love
I'm aching it won't stop
you chose to save yourself
baby what the hell
are you happier

I'm looking for evidence
you can't still get rid of me
i talk to my best friend
she says
that seems like he did

I'm looking for solid proofs
you like her much less
but that singer had lied
I'll never find
someone
like you

I'm scared
I'm brave
I'll call you up as soon as wine runs out
cause what if you're still that wild i see
everything in between

I'm dropping to the floor I'm crying bouncing off the walls
this fire makes me cold i feel it in my veins
i wish i was not that cruel
can't go ahead you pull me down
I shoud have saved myself
my head is aching eyes are burning I'm still seventeen
if i had cancer would you rush to me last time
i gave up everything
i gave you everything
you didn't know it then
are you now happier
You chose to save yourself

are you happier
you chose to save yourself
and im Choking on haze down at The Exchange
are you happier
and i'm choking on smoke  down at Incognito
are you happier

 What if i never get over you
and you'll find it out
you'll hit all the right notes i'll be the one
you' chortle about

I should’ve anticipated it
I confused you and felt ashamed
and im crying all night holding  glass at High Side
your voice screams in my head

i die
i run
across the rooftops toward city lights
what would you wish on wishing star i know
you wish i'd let you go

was everything about us two just fucking stand up line
this fire is freezing me
I've got it in my veins
wish i was stupid then
i can forgive you for everything you've done
even if you chose yourself
i don't remember if you smoked with me that troubled nights
I don't remember if you made the last kiss real
mom please don't touch me now
I lost my biggest love
I'm aching it won't stop
you chose to save yourself
baby what the hell
are you happier