Too much

You know, my love, I'm worn out by it all.
So frayed and broken, waiting for the fall.
Who could have thought it’d hit me this damn hard?
To miss you this much... it felt like a fantasy card.

A pendulum inside me: from calm to a storm.
A pull to be near you, a push to escape your form.
I still remember the curve of your knees,
And how I loved to hold you, begging for some ease...

Your gaze is burning holes right through my shirt,
I could feel it from miles away, a beautiful hurt.
My heart is a bird that's trapped inside this cage,
And this heart in a cage just burns with silent rage.

It all seemed like a joke, it couldn't be this real.
But maybe this is it? The only way to feel?
And day by day, and year by year goes on...
Something so fragile, holding on since dawn.

A pendulum inside me: from calm to a storm.
A pull to be near you, a push to escape your form.
I still remember the curve of your knees,
And how I loved to hold you, begging for some ease...

Your gaze is burning holes right through my shirt,
I could feel it from miles away, a beautiful hurt.
My heart is a bird that's trapped inside this cage,
And this heart in a cage just burns with silent rage.

A heart full of cracks, a heart full of scars,
The blood in my veins aches beneath the stars.
It holds the whole past underneath the skin,
Pumping dark memories, a war deep within.

Just let me sleep...
To live, to love, and finally be me.