Twin flames

i watch your friend game recordings
just to hear you in the background
you're laughing somehwere off screen and i'm laughing here the same

it’s been already two years
and it’s stupid how I’m missing
the unforgiving season of my life that was your pain

and I wonder
if you could call me now

to say it’s nothing
and you’re dying
'cause you can’t sleep you still see my face on your ceilings
and she can't help you can’t breathe in
cause you’re too deep down in the mess you made me believe in
I lost my youth to grieving


I stop at the red light at the crossroads
on the road beside my old school.
I saw you sitting on that swings on the courtyard in the light

I place my hand on your shoulder
said you see us getting older
and it was summer evening
Streetlamps softly come alive

but it’s Vision
everything has changed

but was it nothing?
are you twin flames?
and you sleep well cause you don’t see me in your daydreams
and your nightmares show her dying
cause you’re too damn scared just to lose someone you’re loving
cause in the end we’re nothing
 

September forth I woke up
afternoon feels wrong
you’re  lost in early lights - I’m haunted by the dawns
it feels like I have changed but one thing stays the same
is you who made these evenings magic
if I die say I loved him
cause I just really loved him

cause it wasn’t nothing
it was my vows
it was prairies and the horses run over red fields
they were bloody 'cause I lost it
and I bite the bullet cause
what if somebody’s happiness
is someone else’s sadness
what if your flames are twins
just say that I loved him