The Ghost in My Playlist

A cycle of poems «The Last Letter I Burned Was My Own»

Midnight static, speakers bleed,
Your voice cuts through like rusted steel.
I press play - my chest caves in…
You’re the ghost I can’t rescind.

I deleted every track we knew,
Burned the discs, reset the queue.
But your laugh still claws through the noise -
A phantom scream I can’t destroy.

You’re the ghost in my playlist,
Howling through the static hiss.
Every riff, every beat, every line -
Still screams your name inside my mind.
I crank the volume, drown the pain,
But your echo rides the thunder’s chain.
You’re gone - but you won’t let me die…
You’re the ghost in my playlist,
And I’m haunted by your lullaby.

We drove that highway, windows down,
You sang off-key, wore my old crown.
Said, “This song’s ours - no one else hears
The way it drowns out all our fears.”
Now I blast it through the storm,
Till my knuckles bleed and speakers swarm
With memories sharp as shattered glass -
Of you, alive… and me, an ash.

I smashed the stereo, tore the wires,
Set my past to funeral pyres.
But silence breeds your melody -
A curse that lives inside of me.

You’re the ghost in my playlist,
Howling through the static hiss.
Every riff, every beat, every line -
Still screams your name inside my mind.
I crank the volume, drown the pain,
But your echo rides the thunder’s chain.
You’re gone - but you won’t let me die…
You’re the ghost in my playlist,
And I’m haunted by your lullaby.

I see you sometimes in the crowd -
A stranger’s laugh, your laugh too loud.
Then vanish fast - no sacrifice.
You moved on, clean, with someone new,
While I rot in songs we used to do.
Your voice still lives in every chord -
A beautiful, brutal war I can’t afford.

I begged the devil for one more night -
Just to hold you in the dying light.
He laughed and said, “You had your chance.
Now dance with her… in your own trance.”
So I scream into the amplifier’s maw -
A broken hymn without a law.
You’re not in heaven - you’re in my sound…
The only hell where I am found.

You’re the ghost in my playlist,
Ripping through my ribs like fists!
Every note, a nail, a chain -
Dragging me back through love and pain.
I tear my skin, I break the sky…
But your voice won’t say goodbye.
You’re gone - but you own my final cry…
You’re the ghost in my playlist -
And I’ll die singing your lullaby.

So let the amps burn, let the walls shake,
Let every string for your sake break.
I’ll play until my heart gives in…
To the ghost who lives within.
Your voice…
My curse…
My truth…
My ghost in every note I lose.