I m Not Okay But I ll Pretend for the Chorus

A cycle of poems «The Night Won’t Let Me Forget You»

Smile on my face, but it’s all a lie,
Hiding the tears I don’t let fly.
Inside I’m breaking, can’t you see?
But I’ll fake it for the world and me.

Every word I say’s rehearsed and planned,
A fragile mask I hold in my hand.

I’m not okay, but I’ll pretend for the chorus,
Sing along while my heart feels so porous.
Laughing loud, but inside I’m torn,
Fighting battles from dusk till dawn.
I’m not okay, but I’ll pretend for the chorus,
Hiding pain in a melody porous.

The nights are long, the silence loud,
Lost in the shadows beneath the crowd.
I wear my scars like a secret song,
Pretending here is where I belong.

I play the part, I fake the smile,
But inside I’m breaking all the while.

I’m not okay, but I’ll pretend for the chorus,
Sing along while my heart feels so porous.
Laughing loud, but inside I’m torn,
Fighting battles from dusk till dawn.
I’m not okay, but I’ll pretend for the chorus,
Hiding pain in a melody porous.

Maybe someday I’ll drop the act,
Show the cracks I try to mask.
Till then I’ll sing this hollow tune,
Underneath a broken moon.

I’m not okay, but I’ll pretend for the chorus,
Sing along while my heart feels so porous.
Laughing loud, but inside I’m torn,
Fighting battles from dusk till dawn.
I’m not okay, but I’ll pretend for the chorus,
Hiding pain in a melody porous.

So here I stand, behind the lies,
I’m not okay, but I’ll disguise.