Leadership burnout

The window shows me streets and houses,
And watching them I feel so tired.
Another day, it's fine, but daunts me,
My limits break into the wild.
I try to smile, to look as always,
I'm used to make them feel adored,
Yet I'm exhausted shielding others
While all they do is ask for more.
More care, more love, they can't stop begging,
These craves and pleas I can't deny,
My feelings gain no understanding,
My worries seem unjustified.
While I feel crumbling, lack of kindness
That I give out for common good...
I'm standing here between two fires,
Hurt, nearly empty, still on mute.
Convince myself to stop being selfish
And try much harder for their smiles,
For apathy to finally vanish,
I should protect my paradise...
While it keeps tearing me to pieces,
Keeps nagging on my gracious side,
The part my soul now sorely misses,
As all I do is memorized.
I show them care, I solve their problems,
This act once was put on repeat.
It went too far, I feel no longer
That they deserve to lean on me.
Why do they take my stress for granted?
Is this a paradise at all?
For them it is, but they don't run it,
Now all I want's to watch them fall.
Throughout these years I was an idol,
Yet still an outcast in their eyes,
Who won't say no, who's gonna guide them,
They need me wearing this disguise.
They never cared about my feelings,
Entitled, spoiled, full of themselves!
They take advantage of well meaning,
My goodness, should I even care?!
That's it, I'm done, I want to play now.
The time has come to have some fun.
I'm gonna make it upside down,
My dearies, game has just begun!