Between heaven and earth

I feel just cold with him and warmth from thoughts of you.
This week was not so easy. Heavens pressed stop button.
I'm grateful to them from the one point of view,
as it gives chance to get the moral strength back after
this long bad year. I'm out of power and I can't
fulfill the empty vessel of my tired soul.
I do not want to see together once again
you and your awful wife. The black enormous void
has spread between us, Lovely Beast, in this bad year.
I see I had to leave this town as I wanted.
I had to work with you just two sky measured year,
but you've turned the fate wheel three times. My Beast, I'm broken.
And nothing can re-fuse completely broken core.
There is not strength to cheer you with light lines. My conscience
has found the one way to see you when one wants:
it throws me into sleep. And it creates a profile
of miracle life. It builds the wanted different world.
The visions are too short. The sweet lovely illusions
try to replace the present. I really want to drown
in dreams love storms forever ending life's intrusions.

                29.12.2025