Hard times - long memories

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So why do I
Remember all by now?
Is there a chance
To wipe out past somehow?

My life is bitter lesson,
That taught me hardest way.
With time hopes only lessen
They bow, cease or obey.

The sky lies on my shoulder.
With every new sunset
I'm getting numb and older
Until already dead.

I'm not a fucking preacher,
I don't know how to live.
Past haunts me like a creature
With bloodlust and deceit.

Always changes its faces, bites me and chases.

So why do I
Remember all by now?
Is there a chance
To wipe out past somehow?

I'm on my knees
Abandoned in despair.
These memories
Are burden that I bear.

Another sleepless morning
My dreams are carnivores,
Mood's like there's a mourning
There's always room for worse.

The faces of my exes
Appear again and sting.
I was just given access
And cannot change a thing.

I saw my flaws and bruises
Already thousands times.
My memory abuses
By gifting only fines.

Always changes its faces, bites me and chases.

So why do I
Remember all by now?
Is there a chance
To wipe out past somehow?

I'm on my knees
Abandoned in despair.
These memories
Are burden that I bear.

I wanna stop.
I've said "enough".
But edges of my past
Are spinning very fast.

I'm bleeding out,
Break free and shout
To get relief at last
Return my faith and trust.

My memories
Aren't enemies
Aren't my disease
Keep them at ease.

So now I see
My past from different view.
It is the guide
But If I only knew.

It gives advice,
By sticking piece to piece
Born in hard times
Behold long memories.