Reviewing my needs

My soul was screaming, my soul in pain,
I'm paying the cost for living in vain.
This price is too high when you choose to erase,
The parts of yourself that you cannot embrace.

My soul refused to disappear, to vanish from me,
But I was too scared, I wanted another person for flee.
I was looking for them, 'I should be dissolved',
‘Completely be wiped while they are involved’.

That what I was telling myself day after day,
Ignoring the agony that is always the pay.
My soul resisted, my dreams were sending me warning,
I was so stubborn forgetting all calls by the morning.

The ache of my soul had become unbearable burden,
I found myself running away to sleep till the pardon.
I was dissolving as per my need that I used to cherish,
Blindly moving my soul to a dead end, closer to perish.

Looking through my poems and thoughts,
I see the mistake now, I connected all dots.
I am so sorry, my Soul, I tried to make you a sacrifice,
And every day I would pay for killing your slice after slice.

So, this is the time to accept and admit I was wrong,
Find the power to compose new music, new song.
My parts are not something I shall dissolve,
Being free means to carry your burden alone.