You died first

I came to your grave with a gun in my hand
To play Russian roulette in this silent land
I find solace in knowing you're at peace
Where the pain I live with will cease

You're such a bitch you died first
Now my life is lonely and cursed
I used to be strong but I feel so weak
Meeting you is the only thing I seek

I go through the motions, a shell of who I was
But deep down, I'm broken, stuck in a loss
The world keeps spinning, time marches on
But without you here, everything feels wrong

You're such a bitch you died first
Now my life is lonely and cursed
I used to be strong but I feel so weak
Meeting you is the only thing I seek

I smile and nod, pretend that I'm okay
Inside, I'm screaming,
I wish I could follow your way
Life goes on, they say, but how can it be true
When my heart is shattered, missing you

You're such a bitch you died first
Now my life is lonely and cursed
I used to be strong but I feel so weak
Meeting you is the only thing I seek

I see you everywhere, you're like a ghost
In the silence, your absence hurts the most
I long to hear your voice, to see your face
To feel your warmth, to be in your embrace

You're such a bitch you died first
Now my life is lonely and cursed
I used to be strong but I feel so weak
Meeting you is the only thing I seek

No goodbyes, only the sound of the wind
Carrying away the love that has us pinned
No recovery, just a lingering pain
As the wind whispers your name

The pain is unbearable
The tears aren't flowing
I feel lost without you
But I must keep going

Дата написания 01 июля 2024 года.
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