I want to be happy

I want to be happy.
I want to be independent.
But apparently that will never happen.
I want to be happy.
I want to find my love of my life once and for all.
But apparently that will never happen,
Never happen with me...

At first, I just wanted independent,
I didn't need love.
But with the advent of hard Times,
I realized that I needed love and protection.
That independence and the love of my life
Will make me the happiest person.
That's why it hurts me to see Independent girls
Or the girls their partner loves the most in life
Where they take care of her, afraid of causing her any kind of pain,
And if she has both,
You don't have either.
It makes more painful.

You're asking yourself, "Did I deserve this?"
Maybe it's true, since my life is like this
Or is this the price of being reborn into the life I want after death?
But I won't be able to know for sure if it actually happens.
That's why I'm doing everything I can to improve my life.