Not today

it should've been you
we should've driven away
like we planned when we were alright
when i wasn't crying
cause nothing works out the hundred times around

but you promised it'll be okay

summer rain pouring
i stay inside of my room
but you would drive to me through the storm
and the night is over
and I'm pacing alone
but you would stay up just to talk to me

when you said I'll be okay
you said I'll be

but I'm running through burning city
barefoot dress like the crimson sky
and I'm screaming
you left ruins and that's my life
and I'm touching the ashes
i thought embers would make you stay
one day it's gonna feel right
maybe somewhen but not today

and they're all talking
they ask me what my name is
and somehow i feel out of place
so i dissappear for Days
blush is no longer on my face
and I'm haunting down your blocks
but I'm physically home
and i know you don't even know
that I'm not okay

though you said I'll be

running through the burning city
bloody dress like the crimson sky
and I'm screaming
you left ruins and that's my life
and the debris i step on
odds and ends wouldn't make you stay
one day it's gonna be right
somewhen but not today

Where should I run, when the fires are raging on
And I’m the lone soul standing in
Where can I turn, when the world was made to hurt
And I’m the last one
paralyzed by flames?


 would you come to save me?
but you came to escape it
and i can't leave this burning town
Lighting up as i turn to stone
and I look back down
ruins where used to be my home
I'm surruonded by the wildest fires
it was made by the wave of your hand
no it's never be alright
not somewhen and not today

I know
was it your jet stream?
or is it sirens in my head
i look up to flying planes
cause somewhen but not today