take me back

it’s hard to love but even harder
is losing it without your wish.
when your own sweet and loving mother
is letting u out of the leash
and you are free. you want receiving
the other love, the other kind.
and while you’re trying to achieve it
it really messes with your mind.

you meet a guy, he seems alrighty,
you talk to him, you think he’s nice.
you start to feel for him and mighty
old fear of losing his love comes.
you overpush him to explain you
why did he choose you and why stays.
and wait for moment where yours “knew it”
would fit the situation case.
you complicate, you cross the border,
you disrespect, you start to beg:
“i wish u could be slightly warmer
to understand and love me back”.

and then it stops. you can’t believe it.
it’s over and you’re left alone.
with nothing, basically, but fearing
of feeling sunk into your own
MIND. BRAIN. BODY.
YOU. CAN’T. LOVE ME.

and you? suggest me to move on?
and make it sound like it is easy.
I TRUSTED YOU. WAS I YOUR DOLL?
was i? just tell me, why you did it.
why did you crush my pink cute dreams
about me and you together
when you’re the one who made me think
that it is possible to get it.
you told me that for you i’m yours
and family will love me truly.
and then you leave me like a fool
and telling me to do what? chew it?
“you will find someone good for you”,
yeah, thank you for advice, my dear.
i had my bets, they were on you.
and you were good to me, my ear,
my shoulder, my support, my. my?
why am i even telling you this?
you obviously are not mine,
well, you are no one’s. yeah, i see it.
you wanted this. you fought against it.
you lost and now you’re giving up
on you, on me, on us, on any
on anyone and what’s to come.



if this is what is love, i’m giving up myself.
hey, mom, hey, mom, hey, mom, take me, take me back
the other kind of love has hurt me just too much
and all i want for now is simple - it’s your touch.
protect me from myself, protect me from the other
i’m back to you again, my sweet and loving mother.