Gem

The closer you come,
The faster my heart beats.
The way you look fine,
I’m tracing your smooth hips.

I’ve patiently waited
For this moment so long,
It’s hard to let go and
Still nobody knows.

I’ve kept you my secret,
I’ve hidden your life
From all of the photos,
From all the dim lights.

And now you are sure,
It’s not a surprise,
That all that has happened
Was here for your shine.

And there was pressure,
The hate of the crowd,
I’m here, believe me,
I’m not passing by.

I will still be waiting,
I will still be craving,
But, please, don’t lose hope,
It’s so, fuck, heartbreaking.

The smile that you show me,
It makes me feel heaven,
No, I’m not dying,
But hope you can save me.

And if you want sunshine
To lighten your life,
I’ll be your dark clouds
That’re leaving so fine.

My life that seems perfect
For many to have,
Is nothing without you,
You’re the heartbeat.

The times we have met
Under gloomy streetlights,
The times I still feel like
That’s when I’m alive.

Your twilight blue coat,
The sounds of the rain,
My wrinkled beige scarf
Kept messing your hair.

I remember it all,
I want nothing to hide,
But your life is the reason
Why it’s worthy to try.

You are reason I’m striving
To keep up with life’s pace,
You’re the gem of my darkness,
That no one can erase.

If you want me to suffer,
I am glad to obey.
If you’re lighten to toughen
Just use me in your play.

I know that you’re using me,
I don’t care, I will happily cry,
Just don’t go, don’t leave me
I’ve got nowhere to be.

I will hide you forever,
I’ll be your sweet lies,
I’ll be your whatever,
I’ve got no one to care.