Emotions

It’s so creepy – me showing emotions
And it feels like I need some precautions.
Just some sings that it’s worth my devotion
When the world still collides in distortion.

I know pain, I know blame, I’ve been through them
I know hate, I know ache – inner anthem.
I keep searching for something that loosens
My addictions to someone with boozes.

Even though I’m not alcoholic,
I just need someone make me feel holy.
My desire is to feel so at ease
That I wish nothing more than a kiss.

And it happens, sometimes I keep searching
Somewhere wrong and it worsens inside.
I’m still trying to gain my attention,
Even though nothing there to hide.

I don’t want to displease you by actions,
By my thoughts that are trembling besides.
I know that my deeds are distortion
That still prohibits me wishing to fly.

And I want to give you my promise,
I’ll be better to you, to the world.
I’ll be finally showing emotions,
Even though I keep feeling so curled.