I thought we were just friends

I thought we were just friends, nothing more,
Pretended my smiles were real, my voice steady and clear,
But my heart began to pound, a restless beat.
Even when I looked away, the pain was deep.

That someone standing right by you -
I told myself it shouldn't matter, no.
But unknowingly, jealousy silently grew,
My own feelings I just couldn't see.

I pretended not to know, though deep down I knew.
Your kindness — it felt like a sin to me, it's true.
I'd tell myself, "I don't like you at all,"
But the one who was lying was truly me, after all.

It's far too late now for this feeling I bear;
Even if I told you, there's no turning back from here.
In your future, your tomorrow, I won't be there,
And I knew that was the answer, crystal clear.

This feeling, drenched by the rain's cold touch —
If only I could pretend it doesn't matter much.
To protect the smile you wore that day,
I will just lie again, and gently walk away.

Pretending not to know - it's a painful guise.
Can't even touch your warmth through my watery eyes.
Each time I smile and say, "I'm fine, it's true,"
My heart just breaks a little more for you.

Pretending I don't know, standing before your gaze,
With a calm face, I whisper my goodbyes in a haze.
As if praying for your happiness to bloom,
I quietly turn my back, fading into the gloom.

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