But I get up, though I have no more strength

I wake at dawn but do not want to rise,
The brand new day brings me no joy at all.
I just continue silently to lie,
My soul is bitter, hearing sorrow's call.
My life has lost its colors, turning gray,
And all my days have drowned in hazy light.
My soul is numb, it feels so far away,
And only fires of the past burn bright.

But I get up, though I have no more strength,
Through all the tears that cloud my weary eyes.
So that my Heavenly Father at arm's length
Won't leave me in this desperate night's disguise.
I pray that He will let me live this day,
And find a single grain of joy and grace.
And that the shadow of despair gives way,
Allowing me a new life to embrace.

I do not know where I can find the will,
Or where to find a single drop of might.
My inner self just screams and cries until
The world around me loses all its light.
I want to stand upon the highest verge,
Above the black abyss where wild winds blow.
And with a scream, let all my sorrow surge,
Forgetting everything I've come to know.