Thousand of smiles

Yesterday during the morning call
I didn't smile I wrote that you know the reason
I meant that you didn't deserve my smile yesterday
I wrote to you only happy people smile
I meant I'm not quite happy talking to you

Today I guess I've become more bright more pure more kind
I looked at the screenshot that I made during our conversation
you're smiling not only with your lips but also with your whole face and eyes
from which amazing light is pouring

you were smiling at me from my screen all day
during the breaks of our two-hour audiocall
and all evening while I was doing house work
and even in those moments when my tummy reacted to stress
and another part of the night after you wrote about the latest news

that you hear drones, and bombs exploding over your city
you see the missiles in the sky while at home
you wrote your wife and daughter are hiding in a shelter under the house,
and you and your mom are sitting in the yard and drinking scotch to victory

That's what I've decided today when you call again I'll just give it to you ek smile
I'll give you dash smiles even ek so even ek hazaar*
I'll even learn to smile at your jokes
just let this stupid war end sooner
or rather never begin

9th of May'25

*Dash is ten, ek soo is one hundred, ek hazaar is one thousand in Hindi.

http://stihi.ru/2025/06/16/4868 here is original poem