Keep the door open

I hate these whitened hallways
ghosts pacing to and fro
I asked if it gets better
you said, sadly, you dont know
that was the last time I saw hope

your sweater smells like Sunday
too much to my dismay
you touch the Holy Bible
the one I read to you today
and I wanna say

the skin is white like coats that
i used to fasten tight
 and I recall the days I
used to be on the other side
for the first time it wasn't snt right

it wasnt ribald either
I wish I'd ask you to
read me some words of Jesus
cause I can't tell if its all true
would you mind me too?

Please, keep the door open
Keep the door open
keep the door unclosed
before you go

the blinds were slightly open
the light is coming through
ICU and the needles
paint broken lines on trembling screen
you turn away so you don't see

I'll laugh to all your stories
till heart is out of sync
this flatline lullaby knows
arrhythmic thud betrays my ribs

I'm sitting in the lights like
the black hole in my chest
I see the doctors leaning
"believe me we do our best"
but I know no one knows what's next

I'll listen to you humming
 you said the fun prescribed
I think I could be laughing
if we were in another life

and I wanna say

Please, keep the door open
Please, keep the door open
Please, keep the door unlocked
Cause I wanna go

and I hate to be this hard to speak to,
but I i just want you to stay right here
want you to tell me how to keep
a softer part of me

You'll leave this silent chamber
tarry in waiting room
some ask what it feels like
you'll say, sadly, you don't know
but before you go

you'll leave this haunted ward and
I would watch your back
a wiser woman wouldn't,
but I still stay inside my bed

 and I wanna say

keep the door open
keep the door open
keep the door unclosed
keep the door open
keep the door open
like we were supposed
before you go