Зависть

Жаль -
мне  тебя
не  вернуть
никогда...
зря
тебя  прогнала,
проклиная -
то  минутная
слабость
знаю:
пустые
попытки -
любые  старанья ...
поздно
что-либо,
как-то  менять,
если  всё,
что  имели
вмиг  потеряли -
наивно  поверив
злым  языкам...
зависть "подругой"
втиснулась  в  дом
в  нём
поселилась
уютно  и  сладко...
не  различила,
увы,
её  сразу ...
не  опалила
сердечным  огнем...
ей  бы
отравы...
или
залить
горло  свинцом...
... я  же,
внимала  наивно...
нет,
чтоб
душить  её -
накрывала  на  стол
и,
привечая,
постель  застилала...
        .       .      .
кроме  себя
кого  в  том
винить?

перевод под EDM:

Envy

[Intro]
(Haunting pad, slow pulse, filtered vocal chop)
I’m sorry… I can’t bring you back,
Not ever again—no turning back.
I drove you away, cursed the moment,
A fleeting weakness—now I see the truth.

[Verse 1]
All these attempts, all these efforts—
Empty shadows, fading in the dark.
It’s too late to change a single thing,
We lost it all in one swift heartbeat,
Believing the poison whispered in our ears,
Trusting the venom hiding in their words.

[Pre-Chorus]
(Build-up: rising arp, layered strings, increasing velocity)
Envy crept in like a false friend,
Slipped into our home and settled in.
Made itself so comfortable, so sweet,
While I didn’t see it—couldn’t feel the heat.
Didn’t burn it with the fire in my heart,
Let it bloom instead, tearing us apart.

[Chorus]
I should’ve choked it, crushed it in my grip,
Instead I laid the table, rolled out the blanket,
Welcomed it like a guest, made it feel at home,
Served it a feast while my soul turned to stone.
Oh, envy—you were never a friend,
Just a bitter ghost that stole what we had till the end.

[Verse 2]
Maybe it needed poison to drink,
Or lead to fill its throat and make it sink.
But I just listened, naive and blind,
Covered its tracks, smoothed every line.
Now there’s no one left to blame but me,
No one to point a finger, no alibi.

[Bridge]
(Break: kick drops, atmospheric textures, vocal reverb, glitch FX)
Who else could I blame?
Only myself, standing here in the rain.
The echo of my choices rings so loud,
I hear it in every empty room, every shadowed sound.
I let the serpent curl up in our bed,
Fed it with kindness while it ate our love instead.

(Drop: full beat returns with aggressive supersaw, sidechain pumping, layered percussion)

[Chorus]
I should’ve choked it, crushed it in my grip,
Instead I laid the table, rolled out the blanket,
Welcomed it like a guest, made it feel at home,
Served it a feast while my soul turned to stone.
Oh, envy—you were never a friend,
Just a bitter ghost that stole what we had till the end.

[Outro]
Only myself to blame…
Only my silence, only my shame.
I didn’t fight it, didn’t face the flame,
Now the house is cold, and the walls remember your name.

(Fade with repeating vocal chop): “only myself… only myself…”