I thought there could be nothing more painful...

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I thought there could be nothing more painful,
But then you appeared,
And old wounds ignite.
I'm gasoline, and you're a burning match,
we match
Your fire spreads on me like a forest fire.
No forest bird or beast will escape,
Even the water in the streams will boil.
Is there something in your eyes,
That don't even look at me,
In your steps that just pass by me,
In your voice
That promises so much,
That lies so much.
Everything I do is so foolish,
That even a baby could mock me.
I turn into such a fragile version of myself,
Viscous like caramel,
Burning like a poisonous plant,
And I love this state,
Although it obviously destroys me.
My brain works slowly and my heart makes quick decisions,
And I can only listen to one song,
Thousands of times, a song that explains everything,
And I always feel sticky,
Here I am naked before you,
With all my soul,
And you won't do anything about it.

No, I didn't love you,
But myself, as you imagined me