Only in my heart

to my Mom Eine Izotova (Sunell) 1932-2020

Regrets are burning in a frozen mouth.
Where are you now, east of the south,
west of the north? Where are you now?
you now?

I'm a blank canvas, I lost color paints
We’re only humans not angels or saints
Is there galactic zone where I could talk to you?

Don't you hide in the night
in this starless night
I try to kid waiting for your smile
Only in my heart you are here,
Only in my heart you are home

Time is not over and it's early to die
Still hear hello in your good-bye
You are in the places where spirits roam

Is there exciting? What do you see?
Now you are coming like waves in the sea
Now you are coming when I remember you

But you hide in the night
or in unworldly light
I try to kid waiting for your smile
Only in my heart you are here,
Only in my heart you are home

You're beyond moonlight. How far it is?
Is this like a movie? Tell, darling, please.
Can this dream bring me back to you?
There're your traces in the city I live in,
not sure if my sins can be forgiven
am I the only one who is missing you?

Don't you hide in the night
or in unworldly light
I try to kid waiting for your smile
Only in my heart you are here,
Only in my heart you are home

2021