The cursed gift

Again it's unbearable feelings for you,
That's hold onto me like unbreakable ties.
I miss you. I love you. And you never knew
How much I would pay just to see once your eyes.

You'd say that you're always with me and I'm strong.
You think so, I know, but I still can't believe.
Don't give me that bullshit. I know that I'm not.
This fucking uncertainly never will leave.

It's painful to think, but impossible not to.
You can't leave my mind. I'm so tired of this.
No matter how hard I would try to forget you.
The end is the same. I would never succeed.

I whisper to you in my dreams "wait, please... stay".
You don't. 'Cause it's dreams. And it hits fucking hard.
I tried to replace you, move on, run away...
But I always go back to one point – the start.

Wherever I go it is always you there.
You're following me like a ghost, am I right?
Don't see you, don't hear you, but feel that you're here.
Your face and your eyes are haunting me every night.

I know that you feel me. I know we both suffer.
But can we be happy for once, Universe?
My fate far away. How can life be rougher?
My gift and my treasure. My death and my curse.