The first flash

It was on one of the last autumn days,
three years ago. You called and asked to come.
We were discussing points on one of pages
of a long paper. You stayed from the right…
It was the first and sweetest sudden case
I felt your warmth, despite of a quite big
permissible distance between us. I felt
agreeable flame from you, my Lovely Beast.

That sudden case explained unusual dreams
I had been shown… There was transparent force.
Magnetic force… And since then, the grid
of constant fear holds me in its gloves.
There were a lot of moments I could touch
your arm, but I ignored them all to stave
the sense burst off. I am afraid of nice
deep feelings. They will cause just pain…

The pain of having no one any chance
to be with you… I think a lot of time
of our meeting… We must understand,
that we could change just nothing in two lives…
This trial planed by fate once to rewrite
some awful moves from previous state…
The same dead people are behind new masks…
Again, the stage moves in a holy place…

               
                Thea, 08.11.2024