I don t want to wake up

I can’t stop trembling of my heart
from the last meeting on this Friday.
I felt your heavy icy glance
and your goodbye sounded like thunder.

I don’t know who I am for you.
What am I for? I feel just coldness
speaking with you. My soul’s nude.
All its confession’s here. Yours’s wordless.

I can’t stop trembling of my heart
from the last meeting on this Friday.
It’s like a butterfly in night…
I don’t want to wake up on Monday.

                21.09.2024

Post Scriptum.

Don’t say goodbye. Just give a wide brand smile.
With thin chiselled lips or with grey icy gaze.
That’ll fit in store an image once again
to bring the one in dreams at long black nights.

Don’t say goodbye. Don’t tempt uneven fate
as this bad word recalls in mind the end.
Let strong emotions fill the wordless gap
to save this love before it is too late.

                Without Wax, Thea
                24.09.24

Скользнул несмело в дом котенком рыжим вечер,
устроился в ногах на бежевом ковре
и ждёт, как в прошлый день, обрывки откровений
глубоких редких вздохов в сонной тишине.

Не сдвинет его с места тюля колыханье,
не выманит в окно внезапный птичий свист.
Он верен до темна печальному молчанью,
хранит который год секрет большой любви.

                02.07.2025

You are my biggest secret. I keep you in the heart
so gently for few years. You are the light, which leads
from day to day and I can not imagine the life
without you... You are my biggest shameful sin...

I tried to stop unburned young love in the deep past,
but it was given from above to rise us both...
We are the twin flame: the meeting is a thing of time.
The starry chain keeps us together right before

we open sacred knowledge, that's hidden deep inside.
And you should understand it can do just a pain...
We'll go through a bad striking roman from life to life
before the needed proper actions are once made...

                30.07.2025

The article has overturned world upside-down.
The stage was played in real and I know the role,
which had been played by me... The dream was crossing mind
more, than two last decades. I've found one new point
She had attended more, than hundred years ago...
It's in Palermo... The clock is hanging there.
I saw the most important moments in short plots.
Those moments overturned that life. It is the fact.

                13:38 - 14:20
                26.11.2025
P.S.: I wasn't a servant.


I fell asleep. You came to me.
I hid white written sheets in drawer.
You looked and smiled, my Lovely Beast,
as it was clear, there were lots of
not ended poetry. You knew
the addressee. An old armchair
made squeaking sounds. Your blue suit
had flashed beside. A narrow table
just was between. You took my hand,
I kissed in answer yours then, putting
head on your wrist. And your cheeks flamed.
Lips kissed my forehead. Illusion...
but I felt warmth. Your tender warmth
wrapped all my flesh. Annoying ringing
stopped the day's dream. The ringing phone
didn't want to interrupt the singing...

Just write! pchelca2007@yandex.ru

                15:10 - 15:45
                20.12.2025

I packed my luggage for weekends
and knew, that you should come.
When all was ready I took bag.
The room had filled with crowd.

There was and you, my Lovely Beast.
I went across. All spoke.
I went not giving any glimpse
to you and left the home.

I saw a coming train and rails.
The pipe was spreading smoke.
Hot blood raced quickly pulsing veins.
The scene had lost in fog...

                20:15/28.12.2025

I walked to him, but came to you.
I rose my eyes, you stayed against.
You smiled, but I saw something new.
There was a feeling of the stage...
I felt your acting, speaking words.
I was a stranger in that scene.
We walked and you went too abrupty off,
leaving me there... It's just the dream,
which had depicted my big fright,
but something tells it can be true...
You could send a short message. Why
do not you use the mail to prove
your ghostly person? This lost page
reflects too many strangers trails.
I don't know which are your last tracks,
and are they here between a lot of man's...

                00:21/09.01.2026