the greatest of the men

Written in November 13, 2023.


good girl found a bandit
you pray like our Matthew said
Neither young or adult
Enter through the narrow gate

there were hail and thunder
when YOU GOT AWAY FROM ME
you burned my VIA DOLOROSA
as if I wanted battle, as if you weren't SACRIFICING ME

I tried to
explain so you could know
How much I don't wanna let it go
Your warm hands that feels like coming home
But me is something, something that you don't miss at all

I pray that I'll see you calling me
And I say I miss you missing me
And we'll go down the street like that
That summer you occupied my head

You ran back like LARGE FLYING FOX
I curdled and I stared at you
And TOM BETRAYED HIS LYNETTE
But did he really mean it?
I think I would forgive you too


Every time I cried the merry go
Around around around, and I know

I'll tell you a thousand stories but you'll say:
"It doesn't save what we never had"
I'll tell you a million jokes to make you smile
You'll say you're fine and I don't have to try
"the hard times gone, time took you both away"
I pull card, you say you don't believe in fate
I made a place, you say that you don't wanna stay
I called you greatest man, the greatest of the men

I'll tell you how hard it used to be
Long nights but I couldn't fall asleep
You sat there
But it was just your ghost
But me is something, something that you don't miss at all

You went home, I'm riding in this taxi cab
I lost you, the best man that I ever had
I lost you, the saddest face, the gorgeous grin
I've watched this: the darkest film I've ever seen

You've loved her, you saved the pictures of her CAT
She had you - the greatest of the greatest men
You told me, you didn't want to offend me
You broke me -  the smallest man who ever lived

Compared to your wealth I HAVE NOTHING
I pace like kid that LOST HER MOTHER
I know you laughed at me with your friends
I haven't smiled since that very moment

Whatever hurts you I'll kill it forthwith
So I'll be dying, there's my last breath

I look up
The moon is like you face
I'm cordoned in honour of your trace
My marbles you made me to lose
Coz when I miss that summer I know that I miss you

The Civic we were kissing in
Do you know I miss
How you turned back to catch my hand
A hundred of eternities away
I loved the greatest, the greatest of the men

You called me MISS NON-SEQUITUR
You ripped page off and made me LIVE IT IMPROMPTU
I held my breath the longest that I could
You tolerated it - the moment I held you

I Get you - I'm not the best of girls
you could have
I wish that I was wrong
I'll say you're busy with your work
But truth is you ain't ever, you ain't missing me at all


Will you shake whenever hear my
battered by war name
Would you go back right to that summer day?
I went out of that damn hospital gates
I saw you - the greatest of the men

I'll wake up just to talk with you a bit
You're better hand, you're laughing in my head
I'm scared that I forgot your grace
So I'm chained there still in honor of your trace


I tried to respect your time and your own space
Said if I love - I love till dying days
You said that if you love you love the flaws
And then you left me and you're not missing me at all

You said there's no people with no cracks
I heard that her name has flown through your hung head
I went out of your apartment and to myself I said:
At least I had you - the greatest of the men


My voice will die in city noise
I want this to be written on my stone
WHAT A GREAT TIME TO BE ALIVE
I said I'll wait for you
I'll wait for you in afterlife

The good witch burns in fire as well
You raise your torch up
Flames eat my flesh
I scream but they all go back down
So could you spread my ash in my hometown?