My string

Here I'm standing at the white field
Covered tightly by the void
No one's in this world besides me
In this town I'm all alone
Glancing in the endless night sky
Waves of ice are piercing through
And I'm freezing from the inside
Feeling nothing, so confused
Maybe I'm the one who's missing
Maybe I died long ago
Running from my past, my wishes
My desires of being whole
Is it rage, or is it sadness
Is it joy or is it fear
Can't make out this wretched chaos
Void is only thing that near
I don't know if I'm existing
Truth is mixing with the lies
Is there any way to fix me
Am I lonely sacrifice
Used to make the pain avoided
Growing up within the cold
Now I'm walking down the hallways
Not a single thing is solved
Wished to be a part of living
Only deep inside my mind
Getting sick of that daydreaming
What is wrong and what is right
Learned to smile to make them like me
Gain their trust and their respects
Watching them break down and crying
Calm as always standing there
My own way leads me to nothing
Out of nothing on a whim
My daydream of being something
More than inexistent thing
World is still remaining empty
Careless wind and falling snow
Guess this shining white looks pretty
Flaring at the feet below