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It so happened that since childhood I have been very respectful towards guys, I noticed in kindergarten that boys like to analyze what is more interesting with them than with girls. Later, as I grew up, I became convinced that guys treat me much better than their girlfriends. The guys are always ready to help, give the right advice, and I can advise them if necessary, and I always get to the point. my view of the situation has helped guys and men many times if they had conflicting feelings in their relationships with girls. Whereas my friends were always jealous of me. What exactly? The fact that I'm smart, I look good, I have beautiful legs and the rest of my figure is in order, thin long fingers, beautiful nail phalanges are a gift from my aristocratic ancestors, besides, luxurious hair, and you don't have to spend half a day to create a hairstyle from them, just wash them. Haha. It so happened that I communicated with guys and men much more than with girls, and therefore I always had a choice. When I joined Mark's group, several guys wrote to me. They were interested in the female perspective on the situation. They talked a little about their relationship and asked for advice. And of course I prompted them. They said it turned out to be useful for them. One guy wrote to me and offered to fulfill any of my desires in exchange for sex on my part. hahaha! The poor guy was immediately blacklisted. I blocked it. Then I saw a message from you. You asked me to be friends. I looked at you and thought - what an interesting man, very cultured, very smart, he probably has some difficulties in his relationship with his woman and he wants to ask my advice. I couldn't even imagine that you were so amazing, because you've never gone to bed with a girl without love, even though it looks absolutely unrealistic nowadays, and even when we talked a little bit for the first time, I had the feeling that you were in pain. Sometimes it was read more clearly, sometimes muffled. I thought it was a pain from your current relationship. Then we started discussing whether you could try to build a relationship with a young person, and I said that such an interesting man shouldn't be alone. Of course, when a person is free, it's great - you don't have to listen to anyone's claims that you've behaved incorrectly again in your partner's opinion, you don't have to listen to his long stories about what has already been said repeatedly. But a normal person is built in such a way that he definitely wants to create a couple. So, when we were talking about your distrust of women, I suddenly felt a blow to the head with a club. That's how love comes to me. I've fallen in love 4 times. Moreover, I had a platonic, romantic relationship with my first boyfriend... So, I remember well how love comes. A blow to the head with a club. But this time I was hit with a special purpose club. The whole world shone with extraordinarily bright colors. I fell into an almost altered state of consciousness and it seemed to me that my age was about 15-17 years old... I was very scared and happy at the same time. I tried to eat a slice of lemon and it seemed extremely tasty to me. I looked out the window and it seemed to me that the sun was shining brightly, but it was cloudy outside. When I went outside, passersby began to look at me with incomprehension and looked into my eyes with interest. I took out a small mirror and looked into it. And I realized that my eyes were shining like spotlights. I understood that this was wrong, because I believed that only abnormal people who have a mate or something like that suddenly begin to feel love for another person, and all my life I have been striving to learn not to judge other people for this. Because judging is very wrong. For some reason, I also told you about it, that is, I also dragged you into this strange story. And this is instead of helping you get rid of the remnants of the pain that was in you, albeit in a small amount, so that you could build a relationship with a young person who expects decisive action from you. I've never been a frivolous girl. But here my opinion of myself has not changed for the better. I soon realized that it was useless to appeal to my conscience and berate myself. Then I decided not to kill this feeling, I decided to leave it. I decided to transform this feeling into light and fill you with this light from the top of your head to the tips of your toes. I decided to imbue you with this light. I'm sorry I didn't ask for your consent. It's just that we all lack love in this world. And I thought that my feeling would help you structure yourself and then enter into a new relationship refreshed, inspired, and erase the remnants of unnecessary pain, which by the way, I no longer feel it. But I thought it necessary to warn you that many men who tried to be friends with me without sex, of course, they later resented me, as they regarded friendship as an opportunity to move on to further serious relationships. But you can understand me too. Well, I can't just marry all the good men I've talked to. Therefore, I was periodically accused of being a heartthrob. I told you about it. You calmed me down, you said you wouldn't think about me like that. Mario, I am very grateful to you that I was able to experience such a tender, bright feeling. It's very unusual and I decided to keep it forever. Some time ago, I very reliably lulled my inner woman to sleep, and moved on to spiritual practices. And it was great. And now I think about you all the time, I want to communicate with you. But if you don't write to me, I feel very calm. It is enough for me to know that you are on this earth, on this planet. And that's great! If you ever get really offended by me, I'll still start my morning like this: Good morning Mario!
Now I'm going to ask you a question: Can I be your friend?