Forbidden fruit. Adam s story

I had to go back.

Because there is something unsaid.

And this understatement bothered me.
 
I decided to come back to tell you everything. Or almost everything.

Because saying all the details means not giving food for your mind.

I have prepared words for you.
Simple words.

And when a person wants to say something, he will definitely have such an opportunity.

The words will still come out at the appointed hour.

The word is like a baby to be born to change something in this world.

You may quite accidentally and unexpectedly hear words that will lead you to understand new truths.

And so you discover something new in this world. And your life is transformed.

Despite the fall of man, this world has not yet lost its beauty.

The fall could not destroy the beauty of this world.

But you know this city in which I found myself is very noisy.

And all these sounds of the awakened city merge into an invigorating morning drink that brings you a new day.
And you have to drink it.

Then you will share the victories of the inhabitants of this city and will also be involved in their defeats.

Life will go again according to unpredictable scenarios.

And you will be both a spectator and a participant in this next performance.

Keep calm and take the new day into your heart with gratitude.

For today you are destined to see the birth of new feelings and the boiling point of human emotions.

Everything will be sincere.
And this is the main advantage of this performance.

Accept this emotional message that is addressed to you from the people of this city.

And the look of a familiar person and the random words of a stranger,
and even this speach..
All this is specially for your heart.
Because in this city someone wants to tell you a true story about love and hope.

We all help each other to understand something in this life.
And if you have questions or doubts, if yours is hungry for new insights, then new meetings are waiting for you.



You Know, everything has consequences.
Each of our actions and each word brings some kind of fruit.
We reap what we sow.
And what some sow, others reap.
What fathers sow, children reap.
A causal relationship lasting for many generations.
And how important it is for us to understand this before we start doing something.


You know This fruit in Eve's hands was like a weapon
from which there was no hiding

and it was aimed for me.

And it was in the hands of the person I loved. 
Eva had a beaming smile on her face at the same time.

And I thought maybe it's not so bad.
So she ate this fruit and nothing bad happened.
On the contrary, now she looks so pleased.

Probably everything that God said about the consequences was exaggerated.

I looked at this forbidden fruit in Eve's hands, then at her face.
And it seemed to me that something had changed in her face.

I've never seen her like this before.
Her face expressed something like ecstasy.

Maybe because breaking prohibitions brings pleasure.
Breaking the prohibitions makes you an unusual person.

It makes you superior to others.
It kind of makes you superhuman.

Becouse you are now above the rules and laws.
That is not for you.

You're almost a god, because you don't need laws.
You personally decide what you can do and what you can't.

Laws for ordinary people.
But you are super person now!
For whom no moral laws matter.
And it's so sweet.

And the person says let my desire be decisive.
I will do what I want. I'm an adult.
Let no one tell me how to live.
I'm a real man. I'm cool!

As a result, he commits some big stupidity

And when the time comes to pay for what he has done,
some kind of animal fear comes over him.
His knees shake  and he cannot say a single word.
His face turns red like a young man who has been caught doing an indecent act.
And cold sweat all over his body.




So where does all your greatness go when the Lord visits you?

Even if you have a mountain of gold, you will not hide behind it from the wrath of God.

You will tremble because you were not prepared for such events.

And you become so small, so vulnerable.
And not needed by anyone.

Remember this state of yours.
Remember this humiliation, which your sins have led you.

Remember forever this shame into which you have introduced yourself by your actions.
And do something to correct this situation.
And first of all, confess your mistakes.. Hurt your arrogance and say I was a complete layman.
Then hope will rise and life will begin to change for the better.


The serpent did not have to construct an intricate scheme of temptations to plunge us into sin.

We easily transgressed the Divine law as soon as a few words were whispered in our ear.

Our hands themselves reached out to this forbidden fruit.

And we gave up so easily.

Did God create man imperfect?
Of course perfect! And the perfection of man was emphasized by the freedom of his choice.


Moral fall begins with deception.

Everyone who has lost everything, started by believing a lie once.

Sometimes a lie sounds so convincing.
Lying can be so pleasant.
That's just what you want to hear.

Lying is the devil's tool.
There is nothing more successful than lying in his arsenal.

God starts everything with words.
The word of God is the beginning of all the basics.

The devil starts everything with false words.
And it all comes down to the same thing:
Why do you need God?
You can be like God yourself.

But a person does not become God by choosing a lie.
Moreover, over time, he loses his human appearance.

And then a little more and he already takes on a diabolical appearance.

Because the one who feeds on lies, eventually becomes like his owner.


I took a bite of this fruit and ate it.
And it didn't bring me any satisfaction.
I even felt some bitterness. 
It was the bitterness of deception.

Later in my life, I faced similar temptations from Satan, who tried to complicate our lives.

His traps always look very attractive.
it is beautifully wrapped like a gift,
but when you take them you feel its lightness and when you unwrap it you see emptiness or even poison.


The same picture. At all times.
Forbidden fruit. Interest.
Desire. Violation. Bitterness.
Disappointment. Retribution

Sin immediately entered us after we ate the fruit.
And how did our depravity manifest itself?  - That we have started to justify ourselves.

God asked me, "Have you eaten from the tree from which I forbade you to eat?"

And I am still ashamed of the words that
I said in response, "My wife gave me, and I ate."
And Eve.. Eve said  "The Serpent gave me, and I ate."

Justifying one's sin, and blaming another person for one's sins, is the consequence of our depravity.

Remember that if you point at someone with one finger,
three fingers at the same ime point at you!

Therefore, you will have to repent not only of your sins,
but also in the justification of your sins.


The verdict was pronounced when we began to justify ourselves.

God did not banish us from the Garden of Eden when we tasted the forbidden fruit.

That happened when we start to justify yourself.

We have set a bad example for future generations.

People will often blame circumstances or other people for their sins and mistakes.
But this only aggravate their situation.

Оnly those who admit their sins and mistakes have a chance for a better future.

In order turn everything in the right direction, you need to start with the word sorry.


I still dream of the Garden of Eden.
I wake up and realize that I'm not at home.

And I will never go back to my house

We took care of the beautiful garden where we lived.
I named the birds and animals. Everything was so harmonious.

We were at the peak of bliss.
And at this peak we wanted something else.

Probably a person should not be given too much bliss. 
He's losing his mind in this state.

A person forgets that not everything is allowed to him.

A person forgets that everything he has is given to him by God.

He has already stopped appreciating what God has given him.
That's not enough.

He needs something else.
The belly demands more.
The hand requires more!

And under this onslaught of flesh so easy to cross a certain line that can not be crossed.

I didn't believe that something could change for the worse.

It seemed to me that this state of bliss and harmony would not go away.

I'm so used to it.
No, nothing will change, I told myself.
Even if I do something wrong...




I stood and looked at this fruit in her hands.
It was really beautiful.
I just couldn't take my eyes off it.

When you look at it, you no longer remember any prohibitions.

This is the moment when feeling and desire overshadow the mind.
There is an eclipse in the head

There is only your desire.
And  seems the desire is so irresistible.
 
And you are not interested in when you will pay for this sin.
And you are not interested how you will pay.

Or maybe someone else will pay.

But how can this interest you now, when you see the object of lust and it is so close.

And it seems that you have no chance for other scenarios of this story. 

Because all you need now is to reach out and take this fruit.

But the consequences always overtake a person.
At the most unexpected moment.

When everything is fine.
When everything was forgotten comes the moment
when, under the pressure of events you have to look back.

Or just a knock on your door and you flinch. And you understand that the past has broken into your present.

Becouse you left some debts in the past
and now it has come to you
that you have repaid the debt.
With interest.

You did something wrong once.
And now you have to pay.
And this is not the worst that can be.

Sometimes your loved ones have to pay for your past.
The people you love the most.
They are paying for your mistakes and sins.

Believe me. I know exactly what's going on.

I had a son. Cain. My firstborn. My beloved son.Love is something that cannot be fully expressed in words.God gives us children and we love them so that we can understand how much God loves us.God loves us as much as we love our children.After the expulsion from the Garden of Eden God said that Eve would be saved through childbearing,
When my son Cain was born,
we were full of hope
that he would fix
what we had done.

Maybe he will do something so incredible, and we will return to the Garden of Eden.However, I didn't know that the seal of sin was already on him.
And the consequences of my sin will manifest in his life.

instead of fixing He killed my youngest son and his own brother Abel.
Cain and Abel were two completely different people. The state of the human heart was what made my children different from each other.

You Know If there is sin and arrogance in the heart, then he will not tolerate a pure person. 
He will hate other whose heart is purer and kinder.
And instead of repenting and humbling himself, he will destroy the righteous.

Cain committed murder.If we had remained faithful to God, this would not have happened.you know If children do something wrong,
if your children upset you with their actions,
then view your past life,
watch some of its episodes of your life.
And try to remember completely, even what you would not like to remember.Then be able to forgive your children.
Put a plaster of your love on their soul.

And maybe repent

Then something will get better in the lives of your children.

I felt pain when Cain killed Abel.
And this pain also cannot be expressed in words.

I had to feel this pain to understand what Our Creator felt when we betrayed him.


My all-consuming love for Eva, did not allow me turn away from what she offered me.

Because if I rejected her with this fruit in her hands, I never saw her again.

Probably God would have created another woman for me, smarter, more capable, but I only needed Eve.

I didn't say a word to her.
There are times when words are not needed.

No arguments, no advice work if your feelings are overflowing with love like rivers overflowing their banks.

Everything was drowned overnight in these rivers of feelings, including what God commanded.

Life turns out to be a complicated thing
if there is such a choice in it
that just melts your brains and tears your soul.

On the one hand, a burning desire. On the other hand, the law.

Everyone has their own tree of knowledge, where a creeping serpent is already on duty, waiting for you to whisper innocent words to you. 

And everyone (палец к верху) will be looking at you. How you will behave.

Which way you turn. Right or left.

And if you turn the wrong way, you will need time and effort, and maybe tears, and maybe sweat, and maybe blood, someone's blood, to turn around and already go where you need to finally.



And I took this fruit and ate it. And I didn't know at that moment I had lost everything.
I just started this ticking mechanism
I started the countdown.

God said that you will die when you eat from the tree of knowledge of good and evil.
And so we tasted and did not die.

But ....when we saw after a while the first dry leaf falling from a tree branch, we thought.

And we realized that we were going to an inevitable reckoning, which is called death.

Death is the most shameful punishment for a person.

Everything that he admire, everything that he felt, everything that he loved, death simply crosses out and speaks at person's face: ” None of this matters!”

Whole castle that you have been creating all your life will be destroyed and forgotten.

But people live as if they will never die.

People live a heroic life.
Because despite death people know how to joy to be happy. 
 
Despite death people know how to love with eternal love.
Despite death, a person performs ministry all his life or does what he is entrusted with.
And the rewards for his work, for his ministry, for his faith in some incredible way find him.


On this planet evil will always be active
Because on this planet there is good.
And this is the main irritant for evil.

If evil rages and makes noise, it means that good has been revealed somewhere nearby.

Evil wants to slander the good.
Evil wants to disgrace the good.
Evil wants nd to kill the good.
But the good is indestructible.

The good is resurrected in glory, and turns all lies and malice into dust by its presence.
Yes. That's exactly what happens.

Be among good people.
Then you will be involved in the blessings that they will receive from above.

And those who are among the evil ones will be touched by the curses that will fall on their territory.



Yes. Truly wise is the one who managed to keep what was entrusted to him.
Something entrusted to each of us.
The Garden of Eden was entrusted to me... 
I couldn't save it for you.
I'm here to apologize for what I did in the Garden of Eden.

I apologize for my act that turned life on this planet upside down.

I've ruined everything. I've lost everything.

I kneel before future generations and ask them to forgive me.
Because I couldn't save this garden of Eden for you.
And now life on earth can be so hard.

It's my fault. It's my fault. forgive me.
I was the weak link in the beautiful picture of God's creation.

I'm kicked out of the Garden of Eden.
I am an exile.

I drew conclusions from all the events that took place in my life. 
And I tried to do the lessons that life asked me in a timely manner.

Every thing that told your your good teachers will always be in your mind.
But the best teacher is life.

If you have not done the lessons that life has asked you, then you have yet to do it.

And if you have not yet come to conclusions based on what life has shown you, then you will do it..
And Then.... what you didn't believe in will become a part of your life.

Because Life will give you privileged opportunities, because you were a good student and did the lessons she asked you in a timely manner.

And you know. what I've learned over the years?
- Only the one who falls from tireness at the end of the day fulfills his destiny.

Only the one who gives all his strength to work can claim something.

The best time in my life is a time of work, struggle and trials.
The time when I overcoming difficulties.
When I walked forward through the wind. 

When I was moving meter by meter, sometimes making titanic efforts.

And of cours everything in your life should be for the sake of someone
Not for youself.

And you just scatter these handfuls of kindness, love and merc for people.
And if necessary, give yourself.
All your work all your life is all for the sake of someone

Then only the drawing will be complete.
And all the colors of this life will be fully revealed.
Then only the plot will be interesting, because it will touch human hearts.

You carry someone's weaknesses, and someone carries yours.
We are all connected by invisible threads.

By taking on the needs and sorrows of another person, we bring our souls closer to the divine radiance.

Also, we know how to appreciate moments of joy and peace when everything calms down. For a while. Before new battles and trials.

For, soon again, it is necessary to take your burden and carry it there to the mountain.

And everyone has their own burden.
And everyone has their own mountain.

That's what real life is. Because what I have done in the Garden of Eden must be corrected. Not only by faith,not only by words, but also by deeds, but also by pain

You Know when you suffer,something new is born in your soul.
Something that can radically transform your life.

Because it is only through pain that something new is born.

Those who have not experienced pain cannot give birth to anything.
If there is no pain, then there is no joy, no wisdom, no meaning.

All the best and most beautiful things in a person's life come thtouug pain, through suffering, and through struggle.

I wondered why Eve obeyed the serpent. He was probably very convincing. Or maybe she just didn't have enough of my words.
Perhaps she did not have enough warm and important words that a man should say to a woman. And, compensating for this shortcoming of mine at that time, now I'm telling you.

I have prepared the best words for you.
 
They will make the suns shine brighter.
For you.

So that all corners of your soul will be filled with light and love!

You know, words define everything.
They exalt or overthrow, they awaken or put to sleep.

The words make you feel hot, then cold.
Words reach the depths of the human heart.

Word has perfect authority and everything is subject to it.

Take these words, accept them.


The human word has not lost its power.

And when kind words are spoken, something incredible happens in this world.

So I promise you all the kindest and best. Someone has to promise you.
Because the soul wants to hear the words of the promise.

Because it gives hope.
When promises come from the heart, they will definitely come true.
I promise you not episodes of happiness, but a full happy life.
A life where harmony and peace reign.

I promise you that even your innermost dreams and desires will come true.

If you have been long time in difficulties, it is time to reward for everything that you have suffered.


I promise you all this because words are like strong warriors.
And they are making their way far beyond the horizon.
They come back and bring everything you need from there.

The property of the soul is to feel what is behind the words that are addressed to you.

I give you a part of myself in these words, a part of my fire, and it is impossible to resist this fire.

And he warms your soul.
The cold recedes. The sun is rising, and a new dawn is already coming.

Life will boil again, delight you with new events and open new turns where it will capture your spirit.

Dream and make wishes.
Order gifts. Let the Sky decide for itself how to make all this a reality.

May all the kindest and best suddenly come to you.
Just like rain in the middle of a hot day.

You will feel this blessed moment.
You realize that happiness has come to you so unexpectedly,
and has illuminated your soul with bright light.
And you feel yourself so easy and so good.

The river will change its course and will wash your feet with living water and strengthen you.
 
And where there was dry land, flowers of extraordinary beauty will bloom.

It will be a gift to you, from a universe in which incredible phenomena occur.

There are such colors, such power, such love that we cannot even imagine.

And a piece of all this will come closer to you, enter your soul, and you just won't be able to stand still.

You will jump for joy, you will scream with delight, because the Sky will make you happy.

Even if you doubt it, I believe it will happen in your life.

And my faith alone will be enough to make it come true for you.
Besides, the word still has the power to shake the universe, as well as to generate faith in the human heart!

If someone thinks that a person has become a weak being, do not believe.
Because each of you is capable of a feat.

The time will come and you will do it.
A feat for the sake of love.

The feat is for the sake of fulfilling your mission. Because each of us has his own mission here on the earth.

Go to the end to do everything you have to do for the love of other people.

Believe me, everything will be taken into account Every effort of yours, And every breath of you.

The moment will come when we will all receive our awards and prizes for our faith.

Because the redemption of this planet has already been accomplished.

Because God still loves us. We are sinful and soaked through with sin and sometimes we cannot control ourselves.

sometimes we cannot make the right decisions and show willpower, because sin has weakened our human nature.

We are sinful, we are no longer worthy
Divine love.
 But God loves us. Just as I loved my son Cain, despite his deed. God loves us the same way I loved Eve, despite her mistake.
Love covers everything. We cover the shortcomings of our neighbors with our love. God covers our shortcomings with His love.
And love is capable of doing something so grandiose to return the lost paradise to humanity.

Yes.The love of God is able to create man in the image of God.
The love of God is able to endow him with freedom of choice.
And the love of God is able to restore what a person has lost because of a wrong choice.


And the lists of those who will get to the great ceremony have already been compiled.

And I believe the name of each of you is on these lists.

And I'm going back to history. That's where I belong.

There was no performance today at all.
Adam is forever there, at the beginning of the human era.

And only the words that have penetrated into yours today will forever remain there, germinate and bear fruit.

Therefore, your life will no longer be the same, you will change under the influence of the words you have heard.

Well, when there are no words, it's also not bad.
There are moments when words are not needed.

Let there be silence.
Let it indicate the significance of what was said earlier.
Let her enhance the effect of those last words.
Let this silence give you a new revelation.

Don't rush to break the silence.
Don't rush to talk.

Silence can sometimes say more than words.

Silence doesn't lie. It is always sincere.

Prayer to God. “I'm not asking You for anything anymore.
There is no point in gaining something and acquiring something.
Let life flow according to Your Providence and, simply, Your will is fulfilled day after day.

May the temptations of Your people not be so heavy and the sorrow so deep.

Let the heart remain still soft and kind, no matter what.
And let faith not weaken under the pressure of life circumstances.

And when we wake up and meet a new day, let our first thoughts be about You.

And during the day we will find an opportunity to say a few words in order to praise You and glorify You.
And thank You for everything”.

The best day. Today. He was weird. Unpredictable.

And there would be enough events and emotions in this day for a lifetime.

And everything that is said and done on this day is imprinted there in heaven.

I tried, but not everything worked out.
I should have been kinder and friendlier today.
I should have listened to others more and talked less myself.
I had to please myself less and think and care more about others.

What didn't work out today will work out tomorrow.
For tomorrow there will be new chances and new opportunities.
Tomorrow there will be a new blank sheet of paper where I will draw a new sketch from the bright colors of inspiration and joy.
Yes, that's right!

I admit to the Creator that this world is beautiful, and for everything I received from him today, I say "thank you very much" to him, with a bow and gratitude from the bottom of my heart.