Story from falling asleep or why we need hats

Sleep, my pretty boy,
My precious stalker.
You're not alone
А вот я - одинока.

We connected in a strange way,
You have the helper who can help,
Just ask her, your little greenha(i)red Devil.
You are not alone!

She was alone, when the Knowledge came,
Nobody helped her, all alone.
All alone and nobody could answer
Her strange "a-a-a-a-a-a" call.
And she is still alone.

You are afraid of unknown.
It's ok, just take your time.
But know - the life has tendency to stop its own
Because of randomness of Unknown
Because we're nothing but humans
And you still believe that you ---- are fucking god,
That will live forever.

Difference between boy and man
Is only in that that Man know that life will end,
And that's it.
Not money, not fame, not fuck.
Only that that we're going to die.
You can spend the rest of your life
Trying to find The Truth,

When the Truth on the tips of your fingers,
On your beautiful shaking fingers,
That I'm going lightly shake
When we finally meet alone.
(But probably we will not touch)
((Even with what we did-do,
In our wet dreams together))
(((After all we're just Bonobos,
Slightly wiser, clever, with control)))

I'm not going to eat you alive.
You think, I'm not going to shiver?
You think that I'm not afraid?

You, beautiful silly boy,
We just going to laugh together,
About our small but enormous secret,
And our strange shameful connection.
Just laugh, and you will feel instantly light
Light, brave with a smile
(how do you think why my rabbits smile?)
I'm going to turn red and hide my eyes under the hat.
Probably, you will do the same.
But we will know
That's completely ok!
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.
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By the way, silly boy,
Imagine what I found today!
My diaries since may
 2022
And everything like in your song
About that N^^^T
(OMG, I like it so much!
This incredibly perfect word
That makes me instantly beautiful,
You made me so young again!
And definitely more like Slut;)

You open so many things
That i completely forgot.
And going to know more!)

Ask your questions, my lovely and handsome Devil,
You probably won't believe how incredibly smart you are.
You are perfect Magician,
That needs his own hat
(where did you lost your hat?
WE NEED HATS!WE NEED HIDE OUR EYES!!!!
(Not always, but in most times,
(You will decide for yourself when)

You can write me email like we're in our Youth
Fuck the instant messages without soul.
Hate them when the world abused
Something
that was going connect
Us all.
If you feeling a little younger
You can write me a paper letter.
You probably don't have my new address?
Just one like - I'm not going to ask ANYTHING,
Just will send a picture of address.

You've done nothing wrong,
You did EVERYTHING RIGHT!
Because I feel so much better
I haven't created for eternity
And you made my heart sing.

That's how people evolved.
They started to love more,
To express their feeling to their loved,
And not to kill brothers in war,
They created poetry, started to paint things
That now are usually painted on walls
And not on sands and rocks.

How is my English??? Probably tons of mistakes!
You understand metric system . you're Englishman YEEEEEEEEEEEES!

See? I'm already crazy! (I'm just hiding, pssst, come to me)
People it is just a story from falling asleep,
Move along my beautiful friends!)

p.s I love you, but be yourself and never rush anything. Be exactly that age when the Fucking world forced you to lost yourself!