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"×òîáû âûéòè èç ñâîåé òåìíèöû, íàäî ðàçáèòü ñåáÿ."
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Ñòóêíóëà â äâåðü äðîæàùàÿ ñòðÎôà,
 äåíü,
               èçóìëåííûì òþëåíåì,
                                           ñìîòðþ ÷åðåç
ïðèçìó;
Êâàêàåò, ìóðêàåò,
                                    çàâèäóåò
                                           ïîòðåáëÿþùàÿ Åâðîïà
Ïðîòåñòàíñòâó
                              ìîåãî
                                           ïåðñîíàëüíîãî
                                                             èäåàëèçìà.
Íåò,
Íå Ìàÿêîâñêèé,
Íå Áðîäñêèé, -
Êòî - òî "äðóãîå",
Ðóêîé îæèðåâøåé
                                        ïðîòèâëþñü
                                                                â  ðåàëå,
Äîñòàòî÷íîé 
                            ìûñëüþ
                                           ïîêðûâàÿ,
Êàê èçâåñòêîé,
Ñòåíû ìîåé ìîðàëè.

- Ñèëüíî äîñòàëè?

- Äîñòàëè!

×òî òåáå õî÷åòñÿ, Åâãåíèé Ñàïðûãèí?! -

Ñîíåòîì
                    òðåçâîíèò
                                         ïî æèëàì
                                                              óñòàëî,
Áü¸òñÿ ñ
                  âðàãàìè óñàòûìè
                                  ìîé ñîáñòâåííûé
                                                              âèêèíã,
Ðóêîþ
                òâåðåçîé
                                     îòðåçàÿ äåøåâîå
ñàëî.
Èñïàðèíîé ïîêðûâàÿñü,
                                                ïðîäîëæàþ áîé -
Çà ïðàâåäíîå,
                               çà ÷åñòíîå,
                                                      çà íàòóæíîå,
çà
Ïðåäàííîñòü
                             ñòîè÷åñêèì èäåàëàì,
Ïîòîì çàêðûâàþ ãëàçà -
Óñòàëûé.
Âÿëî!
Êðîìñàåò
                     âñåëåíñêèì
                                              ðèòìè÷åñêèì ýïîñîì
Ïðîøëîå
                   ìàñëî
                                   íîæ
                                               íàñòîÿùåãî!
Îáåñòîëêîâèòü! -
                                   ïðèä¸òñÿ íàåñòüñÿ
Íîâîñòíîþ
                            ïîðîçîþ, -
Êàê ìàìêà
                            êîðìÿùàÿ.

Æèëû - çàñòûëè.
Ñàëî - îñòûëî.
×òî áûëî - òî áûëî.

"I need
               conversation!
I need
              conversation!" -
Êðè÷àë,
                Êàê
                             îòòîðãíóòûé,
                                                       ñòàðûé
ñõîëàñòèê;
Øóòêà ëè? —
Ñèäÿ
           íà ïå÷êå,
                               ðàññóæäàòü
                                                        î ìàãè÷åñêîì âå÷íîì -

Óïðÿìî - ìàíÿùåì.
Õî÷åòñÿ
                  ïðàâäó
                                   ðàçîì
                                                     îïÿòü

Ñëîâîì-ïðèùåïêîé
                                            ê
                                                 âåð¸âêå èäåé
íàâñåãäà ïîäâåñèòü.
Îäèí,
             äâà,
                       òðè,
                                  ÷åòûðå,
                                                    ïÿòü,
Øåñòü,
              ñåìü,
                          âîñåìü,
                                          äåâÿòü,
                                                          äåñÿòü, -
ÈñòÈêàëè ìèíóòû,
                                     ñòèðàÿ ëèêè
                                                              ïðîøëîãî,
Ïðÿìî ñåé÷àñ, ïðè ìíå;
 êîìíàòå
                       äâîå :
ðîäîäåíäðîí è
                                ÿ,
                                        óòîìèòåëüíî-õîðîøèé, -
ðàññóæäàåì î ãðîõî÷óùåé òèøèíå.

Âåñêèìè ôðàçàìè,
                                        àëÿïîâàòûìè ñìûñëàìè
Ðàçáðàñûâàëñÿ
                              íàîòìàøü
                                             áóíòóþùèì
                                                             ïîäñîçíàíèåì
Çà áóäóùåå
                        Ðîññèè
                                        áåç âîéí è
                                                                áåç âûñòðåëîâ,

Çà ìèð íàä âñåì ìèðîâûì ìèðîçäàíèåì!

Èäåîëîãèÿ ïàöèôèçìà -
                                                êðóòîå ïèêå,
Åñëè
            âûñïðåííèì æàâîðîíêîì - ñòèõîì
                                                            çàñåëèòü çäåñü
×óâñòâ ìîèõ
                          çàëåæü
                                         êà÷àþùèõñÿ -
                                                     áóäòî ëîäêà â ðåêå-
Âî èìÿ
               äóõîâíîãî -
                                             Íå ïåðå÷åñòü!

Âî èìÿ äîáðà è ìèðà
Çâó÷è, ìîÿ ìÿãêàÿ ëèðà!

×òî æå íàñ æä¸ò
                                 â
                                    äâàäöàòü ïåðâîì
ñòîëåòüå?
Õâàòèò?
                Èëü -
                          ñêîëüêî åù¸ èñêàëå÷åííûõ
  ñóäåá?
×åòâ¸ðòîå ìàÿ
                           äâå òûñÿ÷è äâàäöàòü
     òðåòèé :
Áóäåò ëþáîâü
Èëè íå áóäåò?
Âå÷íûé
                âîïðîñ,
                                         íå èìåþùèé ñìûñëà -
Áåçàëüòåðíàòèâíûì
                                   ïîñòïðåäîì
                                                      ðàçìàçàí â ìîçãó,
Ôðàçî÷êè - êàïåëüêè,
                              Êàê ïîñòèðàííîå
                                                                áåëüå,
Ïîâèñëè
Ó ñóäüáû
                             íà  áåãó.
Õîðååì
                  âîçâûñèòüñÿ
                                            íàä
                                                         æèçíèþ áðåííîé
Ñïåøó,
                 ÷òîá
                              óñëûøàííûì áûòü
 ïîêîëåíèÿõ
                                                çàâòðàøíèõ:
Äîáðîì
                   íóæíî
                                  æèòü,    à íå
                                                       çëîáîé-ãååíîé,
Áåç äîáðà -
                        ñòðàøíî!

Õî÷ó îáîçíà÷èòü
                                ïîñòóëàòû
                                                        Áèáëåéñêèå
Âî èìÿ
                     ïóùåé óâåðåííîñòè
                                                        ïîíèìàíèÿ ïðåäìåòà,
Îòêóäà
                    òû ðîäîì -
Îðëà, ×åëÿáèíñêàÿ èëè Åéñêà -
Íå òàê óæ è âàæíî
                                       äëÿ ñëóæåíèÿ
                                                                 áåç çàâåòà,
Äàáû õîäèòü ïðÿìî,
Êàê ñêàçàíî â êíèæêå Î. Ý. Ìàíäåëüøòàìà.

Ñîðâèãîëîâà
                              èëè
                                         òóçèê áåç ãîëîâû,
Ïî÷èòàþùèé Íèöøå
                                      èëè
                                           ÷èòàþùèé
                                                         Ïàóñòîâñêîãî, -
Òåáå íå èçáåæàòü
                                    êðèâîòîëêîâ
Íåäîâîëüíîé ìîëâû,
Äëÿ êîòîðîé
                              âñÿ æèçíü -
Íå ïðîñòî.

                      

Èòàê.
             Ðàçáåð¸ì
                              áåç ëèøíèõ
                                            ðàçãîâîðîâ -
èíñèíóàöèé
Ðîâíûé
                  ñòðîé
                                 ïðîïîâåäåé
                                                         Ñâÿòîãî
ïèñàíèÿ.
Âîò - ïåðâîå.
Çâó÷èò êàê àêöèÿ :
Äåñêàòü, íå
                        ñîâåðøè óáèéñòâî, ãðàæäàíèí
Âàíÿ!
Íè÷åãî íå ñêàæåøü -
                                           ñåðü¸çíîå
                                                          íàñòàâëåíüèöå,
Íî ëèøíèõ
                          ñëîâ  çäåñü
                                                ðàçâå êòî-òî
                                                                   íàêðîìñàë?!
Âåêàìè
Íàä ÷åëîâå÷åñòâà ãîëîâàìè
Âèñèò îíî
                      êðàñíûì
                                              ïîëîòåíöåì.
Òàê-äå
                  Èèñóñ
                                      ñêàçàë.
À ÷òî æå
                      íà ïðàêòèêå?
                                                 Ïîéäè - ðàçáåðèñü.
Âåðíåå - ñîñ÷èòàé,
                                    ñêîëüêèõ îíè â äåíü
óáèëè,
Ïðèãîâàðèâàÿ :
"Íå ìû òàêèå,
à æèçíü",
Ýõ, Âàíÿ, Âàíÿ!
Ïîñàäÿò,
                     åñëè
                                  ïîêàìåñò
                                                       íå ïîñàäèëè.
Âïðî÷åì,
                    äåëî
                                íå
                                      â
                                             ýòîì
                                                           âåäü, -
Ïîêà
           ëÿçãàþò îðóäèÿìè
                                                äèïëîìàòè÷åñêèå
ñëîâà,
íå
         ñëåòèò  ñ
                            ÿçûêà ïîýòèíîãî
                                                  íàèãëàâíåéøàÿ èñïîâåäü:
Ëþáîâü
                        âñåãäà
                                                 ïðàâà!
Æåë÷üþ
                    ãëàãîëîâ
                                        íå
                                                 ñïåòü î ëþáâè (!) ,
Îíà - âûñøàÿ,
                               îíà - ñâÿòàÿ,
                                                     îíà - áîæåñòâåííàÿ.
Îíà è òîðæåñòâåííàÿ!,
                                              êàê âåøíèå àïðåëåâûå
ðó÷üè,
Êàê
            ðîòû
                          ñîëäàò
                                           ïàðàäíîå
øåñòâèå.

— Ñòîé íà ìåñòå!
    Àòü, äâà!
    Åù¸ ðàç ïîâòîðÿþ :
    Ëþáîâü
                     âñåãäà
                                     ïðàâà.
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