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The wind has changed
The game is lost
The new life starts
I’ll stay a ghost


It’s been like this and always will be
You’ll never understand the real me
But I will change for you forever
And in my dreams we never sever
I’ll fight for you like never now
I’ll be your only real vow.
The moment you’ll understand further
The one who some time was named Joseph
I’ll stay with you as bloody Mary
Despite the fact we never marry.
The cocktail will destroy your head
And make you feel forever mad
At me and hate me even stronger
For always being such a loner,
For bursting out in deep laughter
At you, always ignoring after-
taste of you lips being so close
and faraway, ‘cause overdose
Of this insanity can kill me
Without you seeing the ill me.
I’ll cry for you and burn in fire
The pain will strengthen the desire
But it will make me even stronger
You’ll never get if you were wrong or
We have made a mistake together
And I will never know whether
I feel the same pain ever after
They burned the book about laughter,
And you did burn me once for real
Without trying an ordeal or
Strangling me before the torture.
I can foresee another fortune
Than you and me fighting forever
In sacred dances where we never
Come to the terms of peaceful ending
And chose another safer landing.