King David. The will

This city is very noisy.
And it seems that there is nowhere to hide from these sounds.

People's words, children's laughter, random shouts merge into an invigorating morning drink that a new day brings you.

And you have to drink it.

Then you will share the victories of the inhabitants of this city
and will also be involved in their defeats.

Life will go again according to unpredictable scenarios.

And you will be both a spectator and a participant in this next performance.
Keep calm and take the new day into your heart with gratitude.

For today you are destined to see the birth of new feelings and the boiling point of human emotions.

Everything will be sincere.
And this is the main advantage of this performance.


This city knows how to make surprises.

He brings you together with people who have meant something in your life.

You come face to face with them in this strange metropolis.
If you have already forgotten someone, but know that everyone still remembers you.

You left a mark on their lives.
And these traces will not be erased by time.

And you don't need to erase anything.
We all help each other to realize something.
 
And if you are still looking for answers, then new meetings are waiting for you.


Accept this emotional message that is addressed to you from the people of this city.

And the look of a familiar person and the random words of a stranger,
all this is addressed to you, all this is aimed at your heart.

Because, in this city, someone wants to tell you a true story about love and hope.


I would like to bequeath to you my book, which I wrote while God was touching my heart.

And there will definitely be such moments in your life when you will feel the presence of God with all your being.

When there is a summer downpour,
or when you listen to the silence of the night, or when you meet a new dawn,
you will be convinced that God exists.
He's nearby. His hand is almost tangible.


I have prepared the best words for you in this book.
They will make the suns shine brighter.
For you.

So that all corners of your soul will be filled with light!

The Words. They exalt or overthrow, they awaken or put to sleep.

The words make you feel hot, then cold.
Words reach the depths of the human heart.

Word has perfect authority and everything is subject to it.

Take these words, accept them.
Use the arsenal of possibilities of the Word.

Read this book and through these lines You will get inspiration.

You will never walk with your head down,
you will never stumble.

Because the Word will guide you,
it will correct your course
and lead you to the goal.

You will skillfully build your defense,
then you will go on the attack,
and nothing will be able to resist you.

You will find everything!
You'll understand everything!
You will achieve everything!

Because the word, the strong Word
will be your patron.

“The Lord my God lightens my darkness. 
For by you I can run against a troop,and by my God I can leap over a wall.
This God—his way is perfect; the word of the Lord proves true;    
He is a shield for all those who take refuge in him.

The God who equipped me with strength and made my way blameless. 
He made my feet like the feet of a deer  and set me secure on the heights.
He trains my hands for war, so that my arms can bend a bow of bronze.
You have given me the shield of your salvation, and your right hand supported me,
and your gentleness made me great
.You gave a wide place for my steps under me, and my feet did not slip.”


In this book of Psalms I have described my life, my struggle, my sorrows.

Life cannot consist only of joys and pleasures.

And the gray view from the window on a cloudy day is the plot that you need.
For your soul.

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I've always wanted there to be a temple in this city.
So that it was built on a hill and could be seen from afar.

Let this temple remind us of the priorities in our lives.
So that people look at the temple and understand that there is a Creator
who created this world, and all the glory belongs to Him.

The temple - It was the dream of my life.

A home for God. I wanted to build a house for God. For him to live among us. In a majestic, luxurious temple.  So that people would come to this temple to meet God.

But God said, “ You will not build the temple.”
Yes. I'm not worthy of it.
I am not worthy to build a temple in this city.

Therefore, I bequeath my son Solomon to build a temple in this city

I was preparing not only building materials for the construction. This is not enough.
It is also necessary to prepare the basis for blessings for my children by my work and by my faith.
So that they have the desire to pray to God.
So that they have the desire to keep the faith. So that they have the desire to build temples.

So I plowed this road for the next generations.
By my work, By my battles By my my prayers and sometimes by my pain.


Do not be afraid of the pain that life causes you.

If you feel pain, it means that something new is being born in your soul at this moment.

Something that can radically transform your life.

Because it is only through pain that birth takes place.

The one who felt pain is involved in a high and creative process of personality formation.

Because the strengthening of the personality often occurs through pain, Through sweat and tears.

If there is no pain, there is nothing.
No joy, no wisdom, No victories.

And through pain comes all the good.
All good things come through effort and through struggle and overcoming. 

But sometimes life can be so strange, temptations, seem almost impossible to overcome, and the reckoning is almost inevitable.

Or maybe it just seems.

The day I met Bathsheba...It would be better if she did not raise her eyes and did not look at me.

It would be better if our views did not overlap.
Because this fire that broke out at the intersection of our eyes could not be extinguished, even if I poured all the seas on earth on it.

A woman's eyes-that's the force of attraction.
It's all in her eyes.
You just can't break away from them.
They show everything, they reveal everything.

And it was as if I penetrated through those eyes into the depths of her soul.

And I saw this beauty of her inner world, which is unique.

I had to admire this creation of God by a woman named Bathsheba and leave the limits of her visibility forever.

I had to go into the shadows. Forever.
But how can the king go into the shadow?

Mixed everything feelings, emotions, desires. And all this captivated the mind.

I was suddenly unable to be guided by logic and common sense.

I dismissed all arguments overnight.

Everything was moving towards the inevitability of my new meeting with Bathsheba.

And it was all a big mistake.
Because she was a married woman.

It was necessary to put a point before things went too far.
But you know, authority and permissiveness multiplied by the sinful nature of a person does something bad to a person. 

It hardens a person's heart.

This feeds a person's arrogance.

The ruler cannot control himself, because his long reign has crippled his soul.

He makes strange decisions because his heart and brain are damaged by uncontrolled authirity.

And so, the realization that Bathsheba has a husband faded into the background.
Why? Because I wasn't interested in him.

I was interested in myself. My feelings.

And what Uriah, the lawful husband of Bathsheba, felt when he realized that the king had turned his gaze on his wife, I did not think about that.

And here is Bathsheba in my palace.
Who can forbid something from the king? Who can refuse something to the king?
That's what I thought before...

I sometimes despise this authority that I am endowed with.

Because authority turn the soul into ashes.

And your humble look becomes arrogant over time.

Your faith in God weakens, but the conviction that you are omnipotent grows stronger.

And why do you need God when you are almost God yourself. And just a little more and you will become one.

The intoxication of authorithy begins.
And this intoxication leads to insanity.

I was distraught.
I sent Bathsheba's husband to war in the hottest fight.
I did not want to let Bathsheba out of my hands, and for this I sent her husband to certain death.

Bathsheba has become the number one person in my life.
She turned off my mind. And this state, when your mind is turned off, completely captured me.

Uriah dies in the war.
And it didn't make me cry.
On the contrary, a sense of calm came. Because I can legally take Bathsheba to my wife now.

For a while, the feeling of inevitable reckoning kept me on my toes.
But nothing bad has happened in my life. And this feeling began to subside. 

But as they say. “Do not wait for a reward for your good deeds, in an hour that you do not know, your reward will come.

Don't expect to have to pay for the evil you have done. In a moment of silence, thunder will thunder over your head."

When Bathsheba was already carrying our child, the anxiety eased, and I plunged into an atmosphere of absolute peace.

I was already convinced that I had done the right thing.
I didn't break anything, I did everything according to the law.
I took a widow to wife. I Comforted the woman whose husband, as a valiant warrior, died in the war.
That's what I thought.

The time was approaching when Bathsheba was to give birth to our baby.

We were all so looking forward to this, and were preparing to arrange a holiday in honor of the birth of our child.

All the conversations in the palace were only about this significant event that was approaching...


When everything is fine and nothing worries you, do not relax, there may be danger ahead, or an unexpected payment for the debt that you will repay with interest.

A reckoning that was delayed by the grace of heaven because Heaven was waiting for your repentance.
But you didn't bring it.
And now thunder is thundering in the sky.

And that knock on the door was like a thunderbolt from heaven for me.

The door opened and the prophet of God Nathan entered.
It was obvious that he had brought something important.

When the prophets appear, they always bring with them some important words. 
And these are not always the words you would like to hear.

Nathan immediately began to tell some strange story. “There were two people in one city,” said Nathan, “one rich and the other poor.  
The rich man had a lot of small and large cattle, and the poor man had nothing but one small sheep, which he bought.
He took care of her, and she grew up with him along with his children.
She ate from his plate, drank from his cup, and even slept on his chest.
She was like a daughter to him.

 A traveler came to the rich man, but the rich man regretted taking anything from his small or large cattle to cook food for the traveler who came to him. Instead, he took the poor man's lamb and prepared it for the one who came to him.

”What a monstrous injustice!” -          I interrupted him, “The man who did this deserves to die!  He has to pay for the lamb fourfold, because he did it and had no compassion.” 
Nathan looked into my eyes and it seemed to me that with this look, he pinned me to the wall like a spear.  ”You are that man," said Nathan!

“This is what the Lord, the God of Israel, says: "Why did you neglect the word of the Lord, doing evil in His eyes?
You struck Uriah with a sword and took his wife as your wife.
You killed him with the sword of the Ammonites.”

I stood there and couldn't move, my breath stopped.
An earthquake was happening in my soul.

My face was burning like a young man who was caught doing an indecent thing.

Everything secret became clear.

And it was stupid to ask any questions.
Sometimes, when people hear the accusation, they begin to justify themselves.
Sometimes they pretend that they do not understand what they are being told about. And thus they pass from sinners to the category of insane sinners.

I subconsciously waited for this visit, and now that this reproof has taken place, and the sin has been revealed, it even seems to have become easier.

“I have sinned before the Lord,” I said sincerely.
My face was already flooded with tears.

Repentance in me was lightning fast after this reproof of my sins by the prophet Nathan.
Repentance is not prayers and words, it is a state of the heart.
When it melts like wax, for the Holy Spirit touches its edge and it becomes so moist and so soft.
And you say those words.
And the most important of these words is "I'm sorry." Probably the most difficult word to pronounce in all languages.

But without this word, nothing will change for the better.
Without it, your life and relationship with God and relationship with man will not improve.

Forgiveness was instantaneous. Nathan replied: “And the Lord has taken away your sin from you. You... you won't die.”

“How good”, a thought flashed through my head. “
The Lord has forgiven me.
I confessed my sin and the Lord took it off me.”

But that wasn't all.

Nathan hasn't finished yet.
And that's what he said next.
“But since, by doing this, you have shown perfect contempt for the Lord, the son who is born to you will die.”

- “What?  the child that I have to be born....”, - I tried to object something in a hoarse voice.

I would like to say “What are you saying Nathan? Let's start your diatribe again and I will accept it, I will accept everything.
 
I will agree with everything but, just don't mention my child!
It's unfair. Why should my child...”

But this was not the moment when I could give orders and command.
My authority ended where the of Gods authority and his prophets begins.

I was like a wet chicken then in front of the owner. 
I was at the trial and I could only listen to the verdict.
Listen and listen to it.
And be sure that all this will take place in your life.

When you have sinned, there is no need to prove anything, and nothing to explain.

Just put your head down and stand still. Silently.
No more words.
Because you should have spoken earlier.
And it was necessary to act competently. But you didn't succeed...
Well, then admit defeat.
Accept this reality.
Then only you have a chance to receive forgiveness.
Because the one who admits his mistakes can claim the condescension of man and the mercy of Heaven.

This is the same Prophet Nathan who saw me as a teenager.
He came to the house of my father Jesei and anointed me king, which I became after a while.

God saw my pure, kind heart and chose me and entrusted the people to me.
And that's what happened to me years later. 
Now Nathan has appeared again, that to return to the purity of heart that I had when I was young.
But at what price!
For seven days I prayed for the child that was born to me by Bathsheba. 

I spent nights lying on the ground.

I didn't eat anything. I just cried and prayed.

I wanted to shield him from the wrath of God.

I wanted to... give everything..I wanted to fix everything, I wanted to overturn this sentence.

But on the seventh day the child died.

Did my faith die with him?
-No.These seven-day prayers brought my soul to the surface. And I saw the light.
I saw hope.
Can death give hope?
Maybe, I say, the Prophet David, time will pass and you will understand what I'm talking about.

Death can give hope.
And someone's death can cut your life into “before and after.”

For someone to live, someone needs to die.

Maybe someone needs to pull on the accumulated sin and die so that the rest can continue to live.

The death of my son did not harden me.

It humbled me.

It took off all my arrogance that I had.

And I turned to humility and faith are what we are saved by.

Through humility and faith, we come under the protection of the Creator.

He throws us a lifeline through which we climb out of the pit into which we fell because of our vanity and constant pleasing of our flesh.

And when that temptation came, I didn't even notice.

Or maybe I answered my mind: come what may.
I'm going to do what
I want now.
Let my desire be decisive.
I am the king.
I am an adult person.
Let no one tell me how to live!

And when the time comes to pay for your deeds, all your pride flies off and finds some kind of animal fear on you.

Where does all your arrogance go when the Lord visits you?
Where does your self-confidence go? Where does all your greatness go?
Where is it?
Even though you have a mountain of gold, you will not hide behind it from the wrath of God.
You will stand and shake, because you were not ready for such a denouement.

You didn't expect that retribution for your injustice would come so suddenly.

And you become so small, so insignificant, so funny like a swamp frog in green slime.

Remember this state of yours. This infirmity, this humiliation, to which your sins have led you.

Remember forever this shame into which you have introduced yourself by your actions.

Never again in your life allow your selfishness to lead you to this terrifying state.

But when you repent and try to transform your life by your deeds, by your actions, by your faith, God smooths and heals the wounds on your soul.

And this story, despite its drama and tragedy, still has a positive and one can say a happy ending.

Because Bathsheba gave birth again.
She gave birth to my son Solomon.

God absolved me of my guilt because my repentance was sincere.

The fall of a person begins when he begins to consider himself better than everyone else.

The path to personal disaster begins with exaltation over others.

When a person thinks about himself that he is not like everyone else, that he is better, then all his curses begin.

Do not  exalte yourself above  other people.

When you meet a poor or ignorant person, lower your eyes so that you don't accidentally get over him and show with all your appearance that you are not like him, but better than him. Bless him and your blessing will be upon him.

When you meet a pompous person, lower your eyes so as not to show your dislike for him and harm your heart.

You don't have to bless him. God will not bless the arrogance person.

But when you see the wise one, look to him and do not take your eyes off him.
Listen to him. Watch how he talks and listen to what he says.
Learn from him.
And when he leaves, look after him.
You don't have to bless him either.He is already blessed.


So old age has crept up on me.
Quietly and Imperceptibly, with a fox's gait.

The face is already emaciated. In wrinkles. And gray hair – like the inevitable snow in a harsh autumn.

And let this age. Everything is logical and natural. 
I'm not a youngster with empty eyes anymore.
My eyes have seen so much that I'm not surprised at anything.
There is such a fullness of sensations that no young man has.

I now understand the course of things.

I'm not in a hurry anymore.
"Who understands life, he is in no hurry."
I just look at people, I look at this world and I see through everything.
I reveal everything that the outer shell conceals.

And I never cease to be surprised that every detail matters and testifies to something.

I need more than before. If earlier I was content with dubious ventures, now I need high-quality food for my soul and for my mind.
For only inner invisible gains give complete satisfaction.

And I am subconsciously looking for new challenges, going to fight, going into the dark or towards obstacles, because moving forward and overcoming is my bread. And my salt.

Old people of this city are a special category.
They know all the secrets.
They are not arrogant, because they understand that it is the biggest stupidity.

They can tell you a lot.
But they won't do it.
Let everyone himself come to understand the essence of things and objects through work, through struggle and through his own experience.


They do not argue and do not convince anyone of anything. They know it's an empty idea.
Let everyone swim in their own direction. Let everyone live as they want. And they already know in advance what will come out of all this.

They have little time left. For those who know a lot do not live long.
But they don't care.
They enjoy this Jerusalem sun and this holy sky.
They are convinced of the vanity of all things, and they know where everything goes and how it ends.
Therefore, they understand that there is nothing more important than today to appreciate and admire what came out of the hands of the Creator and thank God for everything.

Praising God is the most correct and sweetest activity on earth.

When praise and glorification of the Creator the crows hurriedly scatter, the demons gallop away from your place.

The soul is saturated, inspired and rejoices. The body calms down and is filled with new strength.
Because the infinite generosity of the Creator fills every cell of your being and your whole life with incalculable benefits.


Begin to join the angelic life here already – to glorify and thank the Creator for everything visible and invisible.

For the incalculable amount of benefits that He gives us every day on this beautiful earth.

Praise the Lord, my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name.2 Praise the Lord, my soul,    and forget not all his benefits—3 who forgives all your sins    and heals all your diseases,4 who redeems your life from the pit    and crowns you with love and compassion,5 who satisfies your desires with good things    so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.

The Lord has established his throne in heaven,    and his kingdom rules over all.
20 Praise the Lord, you his angels,    you mighty ones who do his bidding,    who obey his word.21 Praise the Lord, all his heavenly hosts,    you his servants who do his will.22 Praise the Lord, all his works    everywhere in his dominion.
Praise the Lord, my soul.

This text is from my will. From the book of Psalms, which will be included in the biblical epic and will remain until the end of time. And everyone who reads this book will be enlightened in mind and transformed in soul.

There were many more stories in my life. One of them is about my struggle with Saul.

The story About the confrontation of two forces, which will also continue until the end of this world.

Do you know what conclusion I drew from it?

 - Strong people are always kind. Weak people are always Evil.
Arrows and spears from evil people will always fly at a good person, because evil people understand that you are better, they will feel it subconsciously, so they will want to humiliate you or even overthrow you and ruin you.

But you stand this test. And then the tension will subside.

The evil-doer will be overthrown.
And you will conquer new heights and new hearts.

As a seed does not germinate immediately, as a house is not built quickly, so the consequences of good and evil do not affect overnight.

Evil is attractive, it starts well, but ends up with nothing and gets zero in the end.

Goodness is not always attractive. Sometimes it starts expressionlessly, but gains momentum, becomes the absolute leader and ends the game with a beautiful, unconditional victory.

Goodness takes all the prizes and awards.
Just be on this team. In the good team. In the team of the faithful.

Be in the team of the good, then you will be involved in the blessings that will come to their territory.

Those who are among the evil ones will be touched by the curses that will come upon them.

Strive for those things that make your soul kinder and brighter, and avoid things that can make your soul rude and callous.

 Let your heart melt like wax in the moments of God's visitation, rather than suffocate and wither in the moment of the devil's seduction.


Good teachers are a great luck. And what they told you will always be in your head. Forever. But the best teacher is life.

If you have not done the lessons that life has asked you, then you have yet to do it.

And if you have not yet come to conclusions based on what life has shown you, then you will do it anyway.Then what you dreamed of will become a part of your life.A miracle will happen! It will thrill your soul.And there will be new colors and new events. And new discoveries!

Life will give you privileged opportunities because you were a good student and did the lessons she asked you in a timely manner.


I bequeath you my words. You know words will never lose their value. Even after three thousand years.

They will eventually become even more relevant and significant.
All these words that I have spoken and written are born of faith and love.

And I will leave the most significant arguments for later.

These words will act and convince. They will gain special power. But only when I'm gone.

Well, when there are no words, it's also not bad.
There are moments when words are not needed.

Let there be silence.
Let it indicate the significance of what was said earlier.
Let her enhance the effect of those last words.
Let this silence give you a new revelation.

Don't rush to break the silence.
Don't rush to talk.
Think before you say how your words will sound and how they will be perceived.

Silence can sometimes say more than words.

Silence doesn't lie. It is always sincere.

Prayer to God. “I'm not asking You for anything anymore.
There is no point in gaining something and acquiring something.
Let life flow according to Your Providence and, simply, Your will is fulfilled day after day.

May the temptations of Your people not be so heavy and the sorrow so deep.

Let the heart remain still soft and kind, no matter what.
And let faith not weaken under the pressure of life circumstances.

And when we wake up and meet a new day, let our first thoughts be about You.

And during the day we will find an opportunity to say a few words in order to praise You and glorify You.
And thank You for everything”.

The best day. Today. He was weird. Unpredictable.

And there would be enough events and emotions in this day for a lifetime.

And everything that is said and done on this day is imprinted there in heaven.

I tried, but not everything worked out.
I should have been kinder and friendlier today.
I should have listened to others more and talked less myself.
I had to please myself less and think and care more about others.

What didn't work out today will work out tomorrow.
For tomorrow there will be new chances and new opportunities.
Tomorrow there will be a new blank sheet of paper where I will draw a new sketch from the bright colors of inspiration and joy.
Yes, that's right!

I admit to the Creator that this world is beautiful, and for everything I received from him today, I say "thank you very much" to him, with a bow and gratitude from the bottom of my heart.