88

I didn't want to disrupt the magic of number 88
that's exactly how many I wrote you poems to this day
i want to cut it out
to quit and leave
to take away your feelings and forget
to venture into oblivion
to run away and heal from wounds that are already healed
sorry, it is basically a false regret
from a distance to regret what is not

I can't fight for myself
I can't just dream of happiness for myself
so why bother with separation

news from the world is not favorable
I'm back in my world
again in full consciousness
basically I have no reason to complain
I'm full back
oh what a miracle after all
oh how scary after all

everything is somehow different
without your response, life engulfs me
life, who screams with strange happiness
I stretch across the third white hight world
to reassemble me
third or fifth?
and I scared
and I have a feeling that despite the noise ...
that you over that ominous distance ....

love, i feel you
love, i hear you

love, i don't know how better to be with you anymore
I'm afraid you'll disappear
you will melt away like my dream before dawn
I would like to sleep forever
and not wake up to longing
I have to get rid of fear
because otherwise I would feel
that I have no way to share my happiness with you

I can't fight for myself, just for myself
I can't just dream of a happy life for myself
maybe it's time to change that

how happiness is created for us?