Quivering Shadow

I fastly became shadow of my own,
withering
like i had stopped to exist, I'm nowhere to be found
My numbers had deleted by themselves or i imagined - it's the deal of a swindler

Fucking hell, it's cool to have an ability be adoptable to everything, anything
Come on, we both know it's a ghastly lie

Humans just pretending when they are sad - they are usually ecstatic
We all are people, who explicitly need hand of a help

And I'm not crying
I'm quivering, no one had stayed with me for more than 1 year, love is a stranger for the woman like me   
Perhaps, only couple of folks had captivated my apart heart

I don't have an ability saying like the truth
It scares me to death

Without any brakes my legs had led me to a crossroad
we met here, my sweetheart
the sun descended, you better be here, chamomile and the burnt paper were in the air
The air was hot, high - the coal was wet then dry
I burnt the memories, i burnt the memory lane
It was your photos, mine too
Remind me who i am?
Only a shadow
without love
without you