Borderline

It's easier when they don't understand my words
It's easier when there's nobody who supports
It's easier when there's nobody who will read
Well, I don't need.

I'm breaking my own borders every time I wake
But there's my borderline PD - I'll build the same
I'm sick and tired of this and I just need a break,
To break the all I've built - I need a space to make

The walls. These voices living in my head,
They force me to remember everything I said
I rape myself all day and then I go to bed
And hope to sleep, but I'm still mad

This life which made me bored of everything I see
It was too short, but pain was long and it repeat
And now there's nothing ever I can really feel
If life's a wheel, so give me one Modafinil

My psychiatrist told me I should take my pills
But there's no one who told me to accept my "me".
They told me that I can't be normal anymore,
What if they're wrong? I must be drunk.

I must be drunk to think they could to got me right,
I must be drunk to think that someone'll save my life
I must be crazy cause I thought he'll hold me tight,
But stop, it's true - I'm crazy psycho, and it's fine.

They think they left me, but I wanna be alone,
It's nice to take the breakfast on your peaceful own,
They think it hurts me but my mind was made of stone
And it comes handy when I'm gone

If this world for egoists, why should I join in?
If you want to get a joy, I'll not force you to enjoy
me
If you wanna break the silence,
You should prepare for a violence
(Leave me alone
And
Never
Try to
Touch
My soul)